laughter is da bezz medicine...!!!!!

hahaha...u wana bath??? damn damn funny...cant stop laughing in da bathroom...went pasar malam jz nw...quite a hapy n funy day...yan n ryan were walking...den me n jacky walking oso...hahaha....kinda fun...i act din even look much at other guys...den i sort of coughing alot in fron of da mee stall...he stand ter n wait 4 me...hahaha....bt he din belanja anyting lar...fetch me from coll oso...2dy full day work in coll....so kimat oni...gt rm10...ya den gt free lunch 2dy...ms jen was act gona ask vinita dem dat clas 2 mp 4 lunch steamboat....den when she cm down c us oso....jz call me n wei quing along...den carmen oso called...so al2geter 8 person...fin bt rm130....quite nice lar act...nt bad....den later jz hang out in coll....chatted wit siti n al...den jz nw yum cha at fok tsing...damn damn funny...i was like da sot sot myself again..damn long din hapy ldt d...since penang trip mayb....hahaha...tey gona tink i'm drunk if i had some beer or wat...

sick d...coughing like mad...

eyes kp on tearing...thraot damn ng song...realy coughing like mad...jz wk up oso ....wonder if i can jz slp nw....flu oso coming 2geter i tink....jacky stil hvn nudge me or anyting...haizzz...dat ryan kp asking wat i'm doing....

Am I falling in again???

hmmm jacky jacky jacky...i oso duno errr...den laz nite sud ryan ask wat we tok bt dat day in da lib...dats al bcz jacky told him we toking bt him...haizzzz....stupid idiot lar him...damn blur realy...den mk me pissed off oso...ish ish...den ryan stil wana call me somemore...wan lunch 2dy oso...haizz duno wat 2 say 2 him d...escaping realy...den i wonder if i like jacky act....chatting alot wit him...den sms oso gt...realy blur larr...duno he's helping ryan or himself...i wonder realy....n i duno if he's falling 4 me or jz normal frens...haizzz....den hyin 's wit khidir d...kee kinda close wit cy...stupid big fat liar...even tian's dating...ish ish...my god...realy SAD...ytd went 2 halo cafe...singing realy dis is called...i repeat dis song 4 duno hw many times...da lines n da whole song....hugo tot me alot act...abt pitching...using da power....letting it al out...using my voice 2 da fullest....everyting...den my english during singing is act diferent...kinda like i duno hw 2 speak english at all...den ytd nite oso micheal's laz performance....den he's new found target Cindy was ter oso....heard from dem dat he gt da gal's num asking candy 2 ask her....she went 4 drink in halo cafe...den nex day he asked da gal out...damn fas wey realy....hahaha....

True Love Story

It's a cold February night. People are bustling through the streets, either pulling up their coat collars or wrapping scarves around their necks, trying to stay warm.It's so cold today.I'm standing at my window, looking at the people moving like little dots. Standing in a heated room, I'm beginning to pity those people. Why don't they go home? Do they plan on wandering until morning?"Almost time to go home! My boyfriend must be going crazy." One of the nurses breathe a sign of relief. "Still needs to work overtime on Valentine's Day. It's so unfair!""You are fortunate." Another nurse says. "Some people don't have anyone waiting for them.""You mean Dr. Shu?"Like Sherlock Holmes, my ears perk up when I hear my name."Do you remember how she lost control on this day last year?""Of course I do." A nurse shudders. "I've never seen Dr. Shu like that. Crying and yelling, like she was crazy."They are talking about how I was last year. They are correct. I was out of control, like they said."You can't blame Dr. Shu. If my boyfriend died in front of my eyes, I would probably go crazy as well.""Keep it down. She hasn't left work yet. She might hear you." The two nurses are too late. I heard the entire conversation through the canvas wall."Dr. Shu, what are you doing standing here?"Just as I was deciding whether or not to reveal myself, another nurse exposed me. I awkwardly step out. The 2 nurses who discussed me start to blush. Their faces became redder than the bow on Valentine's Day chocolates."I'm waiting to go home." I pretend that I didn't hear anything."Dr. Shu, you must have gotten too involved in your work. It's already past time to go home. See you tomorrow. Happy Valentine's Day!" She waves goodbye."Happy Valentine's Day." I wave back and watch the 2 nurses hurry away.That's fine. I was ready to go home anyway. Even though no lover is waitingfor me, at least there's a lazy cat waiting for me to feed.After I come home, the first thing I do is feed the cat. I forgot when I first had the cat. Probably since last year's Valentine's Day. At that time, I was like an abandoned cat, with eyes filled with despair. Cats don't cry, I do. That's the only difference."Better drink all the milk or I'll skin you." I threatened the cat. Her name is Christine, my least favorite English name. I don't know why I named the cat Christine. Christine meowed once to let me know she heard me, but her eyes are complaining about my severity. Her eyes remind me of someone I used to know, standing in front of me with eyes of rebellions.An year ago today, I had lunch with my boyfriend and took the opportunity to complain to him."Today is Valentine's Day. Why didn't you give me any flowers?"He raised his eyebrow. "Why should I give you flowers? You are not my anyone.""Then... you should at least give me a card!" I pouted my lips, hurt by his tone."I know, I know. After lunch, I'll send you an e-card."E-card. That sounds so impersonal, but that's the way he is. "You have to e-mail it to me. I'll be waiting." I excitedly smiled and planned to sneak home after lunch to check e-mail. Even though he wouldn't use any romantic words, I still looked forward to the card."I can't stand you women. Why do you make such a big deal out of Valentine's Day??" He grumbled while eating his food. His comment induced me to fight with him again."You are not romantic at all!! Don't you watch any Japanese drama?""Japanese drama? I only watch Discovery Channel.""Your life is so boring." I made a face at him. "One recent drama was really good. You should have watched it.""What's that drama called?" He didn't believe in the love portrayed in TV and movies. He always thought they were lies."It's called 'Story of A Century'." I gladly answered."What kind of trashy plot did it have?""What do you mean trash?? Show some respect!" I was so angry. "That drama was very touching, and the theme song was beautiful as well. It's called 'Only Love', performed by Nana Mouskouri." I wonder if he knew who Nana was."Nana, I know her. A Greek singer with really expensive albums.""Her voice is worth it." Even though I secretly agreed with him, I couldn't bring myself to admit it."Whatever." He glanced at his watch. "I'll give you 5 minutes to tell me the plot. After that, I'm leaving."I tried hard to explain 6 hours worth of story in just 5 minutes. The drama portrayed the love stories of 3 generations of women spanning 100 years, from 1901 to 2000. Each generation was portrayed by the same actress. The story was tear-jerking."What's so touching about it?" He asked, after listening to the story."Don't you think each generation's story is wonderful? If I have such great screen writing ability, I wouldn't be a doctor anymore. I would become a screenwriter.""If you become a screenwriter, I bet no one would watch the show. The TV station can go out of business." He quickly interjected."I'm going back to work. Hurry and send me the card!" I was so mad that I went home immediately, not even finishing my coffee.As soon as I walked in my door, I turned on my computer and go online.Staring at the empty in-box, I began to reminisce about how we met. Maybe no one will believe me, but my boyfriend and I were actually neighbors. Our homes were only 1 wall away. Ever since we were kids, we liked to fight with each other all day long. I still remember when I moved to the country that year. Used to the city life, I couldn't get used to the simple life in the country. After school, I would just go home and do nothing. Whenever that happened, he would always come over to tease me."Why are you staring off into space??" He loved to pull on my hair. "You're so ugly when you're doing nothing. But you're also not pretty when you smile." In other words, I'm really ugly."You're the one who's ugly!" I pull back my hair. "If you think I'm so ugly, why do you visit me??""Can't help it. My home is right next to your home." He argued."Then I'll move!" The next day, I drew a line in the ground using some white chalk. A line that I forbid him to cross.That year, we were both in the 5th grade. We couldn't stand each other and hoped the other would move away. But 5 years passed, and neither of us moved. Not only that, we got into the same high school and into the same class."You're that infamous couple." All the students and teachers in the school would say whenever they saw us."We're not!" I always tried to explain. "We're only neighbors." At that time, I hated my parents for making us live next to him."My standard is not that low." He would say. "Who wants her to be a girlfriend?? It's not like I don't have eyes.""Yes, I know your eyes are on top of your head." I really disliked him. "Better than having eyes on the bottom of my head like you." He implied that I couldn't judge guys. At that time, I had a crush on a senior.I didn't think that his sarcasm had a hidden meaning. After a while, I found out that the senior student had lots of girlfriends. When I cried about it, he silently passed me a handkerchief and awkwardly held me in his arms."I told you he wasn't any good." He roughly comforted me. I cried in his arms the whole night, and began to see him in a different way. Things began to change between us. We still fought all the time, but he started to look at me differently. And I blushed and my heart beat faster when he was near. We both knew: we fell in love with each other.Even with this knowledge, neither of us said anything. Even though we wouldnot be able to resist and kissed each other constantly. Even though we cared about each other's every moves. Both of us refused to admit our love.Time flew by quickly, and it was time to face separation. I chose to study medicine, and he chose physics. Yet we still couldn't separate from each other. Our parents worried that we didn't know anyone in Taipei, so they forced us to live in the same apartment building. Once again, we became neighbors. We still fought, but sometimes we fought into the bedroom. Alright, we became lovers, but we still wouldn't say we loved each other. We didn't even spend Valentine's Day together until he saw me share dinner with a man one Valentine's Day. That night, he waited for me in front of my door and said that he would take me out to dinner on Valentine's Day from then on. I have to say that he was very arrogant. But I nodded and accepted his request. Since then, we spent every Valentine's Day together. After graduation, I became an intern. He started a small computer company with some friends and became a programmer. We were busy with our own lives and had no time for a relationship. Three years later, I became a doctor, and his business began to boom. We separately moved to biggerapartments and stopped being neighbors. On the surface, we left each other. In reality, we were still together. We spent every Valentine's Day together but each year became more dreary than the next because he never told me he loved me even with all my hints.Facing the empty in-box, I suddenly grew very angry. He wouldn't say it and wouldn't send me a card. What did he mean? Who did he think I was? I called his cell phone."Hello." He picked up the phone."I didn't receive the card." I immediately showed my displeasure."You didn't receive it?" He seemed really busy. "But I sent it."He was really busy but I didn't care. "I didn't receive it. Send it again.""Okay, I'll send you 100 times. Is that good enough??" He said with impatience. His tone further infuriated me. Is that how lovers speak to each other?"Don't bother sending it to me. And you don't have to pick me up tonight.I'll eat dinner by myself.""Don't be childish, ok? I'm really busy.""I AM childish!" I hung up the phone and tears rolled down my cheeks.Childish?? Why didn't he consider the situation? We've gone out for so many years and spent countless Valentine's Day together. I never received any flowers nor cards from him. Now, I just want a little e-card. Is that too much to ask for??I unplugged the phone from the wall and turned off my cell phone. I didn't want to hear his explanations. After I returned to the hospital, I instructed the receptionist not to forward me any phone calls. I wanted to concentrate on work.Because there were so many emergencies today, I was sweating 1 hour later and forgot about our argument."Dr. Shu, please take a look at that patient."As I was collecting my equipment, the shrill sound of an ambulance sounded outside the ER. When I stepped out the door, the emergency medics hurriedly wheeled in a gurney."What happened to him?" I asked the 1st medic. Everyone else were trying to help put the patient on the gurney. He was covered with blood."Car accident." The medic replied. "Very serious. He may die."I nodded and ran to the operating room with them. When I arrived, the nurses told me that the man had already stopped breathing and also his heartbeat also stopped"Prepare for shock." I calmly instructed the nurses. Saving people is our duty. We can't lose our calm.But when I saw who laid on the operating table, I lost my calm. That person was my boyfriend!"No..." I stood in shock. "NO!!!" I grabbed the paddles and continuously shocked his body. His body bounced up and down from the shocks. The scared nurses went to find another doctor, to tell him that I was crazy.I didn't know if I was crazy or not. I just wanted to save my lover. Even though we fought all the time. Even though he never showed me his love. I still wanted to save him. He still owed me a card. He couldn't die! I threw away the paddles and began to press on his heart. I pressed with all my strength, hoping it would revive him, but he didn't wake up. He didn't even say "It hurts". He just laid there with his eyes closed, punishing me with his silence.Dr. Jian angrily pushed me away. By that time, I couldn't see clearly anymore. I cried. I wailed. I bowled until no sounds could come out of my mouth."It's too late, Dr. Shu. He's already dead. I'm sorry." Dr. Jian patted me on the shoulder. They knew each other and ate together once. I introduced them."He can't die." I shook my head. "He can't die!!" I struggled to run to him."Dr. Shu, control yourself!" Dr. Jian slapped me. "I understand what you're going through, but you're a doctor."Yes, I'm a doctor, but I'm also a regular person. How can Dr. Jian understand how I feel? I've loved him for so many years that it's become a habit. How can I just throw away a habit? Besides, he still owed me a card. "I want him to live! I want him to live!" I ran to him again and tried to knock the life back into his body."Take her away!" That day, I lost my control and my professionalism.And that day happened to be Valentine's Day.Afterwards, I asked his co-workers why he left work early that day.They told me that after I hung up the phone, he tried to call me several times but couldn't reach me. Worried, he drove to the hospital to find me and got hit by a large truck on the way.When I heard this, I froze. My tantrum killed him. Just because of an unmailed card, he died. After that, I lost my privilege to be childish.Like an abandoned cat, I couldn't even cry anymore. After his death, I couldn't cry anymore, regardless of how touching the plot or how tear-jerking the dialogue. They didn't affect me anymore.Now, I'm only left with a cat and a seldomly used computer. Stepping over the cat, I turned on the computer. Even though I know no one will send me a mail, I still hoped that someone will remember me on this day.Meow, meow. I looked at Christine to see what's wrong. She finished her milk. I went into the kitchen to get her more milk then came back to look at the computer screen.I have.... 100 emails! Who would be bored enough to send me 100 junk mail?I was just about to delete them all when I received another mail, and this one said: "Because of system error, we could not send these until today.We apologize for the delay." The sender was my ISP.I looked at the 1st mail. It showed the send date is last year's Valentine's Day. My heart began to beat fast. Could he have sent these?With a trembling hand, I opened the mail. The first thing that popped up was a gorgeous red rose set against green leaves. Then a beautiful melody began to play.... "Only Love". I couldn't believe it. The rose was so beautiful and the music was so dreamy. I almost thought I was in a fantasy. Most touching of all were the words underneath the rose, because the words read like a beautiful poem."Hwei."That's my name."Knowing you so many years, I've never sent you any flowers. Today I send you a rose."I received it and it's so beautiful."You know we are always fighting. We can never really open our hearts and tell each other how we feel."Yes, but it's all your fault for being so distant."I know I always make you mad by the things I say."Good that you're admitting it."But today I want to say to you: I'm sorry, and I love you."I waited so many years for those words."And I want to tell you a good news. I finally saved enough money."You already have enough money. Why did you need so much?"So Hwei, let's get married!! I was afraid to propose to you, because I didn't trust in my ability to give you the good life you deserve. But now I've saved enough money so we don't have to wait anymore."Who wanted you to wait? I'm already yours."Today, I use this card to propose to you. Will you marry me, Hwei? Will you?"That's the content of the whole card. Like a fool, I kept reading his words and talking to him. It's like I can hear his voice and see him again.As if it's back to 1 year ago with us constantly fighting.The song played over and over. Repeating Nana's heartbreaking voice.Only love can make a memory. Only love can make a moment last. You were there and all the world was young and all it's songs unsung. and I remember you then when love was all, all you were living for,and how you gave that love to me...."The lyrics of this song fits our love so closely. When he was alive, my world was so young. Every day, I could find a something different to fight with him about. But after he left, my life is only left with memories and coldness that will never go away."Will you marry me?"When I read these words, my tears unconsciously came, wetting the keyboard.Will I? If he's in front of me, I will definitely kick him and call him a big fool. If I wasn't willing, I wouldn't have waited until today.So I moved the cursor over the "Reply" box, and typed the response that I've already prepared for so many years - "I will."I will - be by his side for the rest of my life. I will - fight with him forever. That is how I answered him, but the only response I got was the repeating song "Only Love."Nevertheless, I opened every single letter, accepted every singled rose, and typed the same response: "I will."I replied 100 times, and "Only Love" played 100 times. In this cold Valentine's night, the line that's been broken for 1 year finally got reconnected.I answered you. What about you?

I don even think I feel anything for u anymore...2 many things heard and seen...!!****big time mood out..!! dats wat i jz c in his msn personal message...should b meaning 2 me...i tink...bt i dun tink i gona ask him....haizzzz....wat can i ask anymore...i duno...nt a nice feeling though...crushed heart....somebody who loved me so much gona let me go off...it should b dis way act...btw jz nw chatted wit jacky in da lib...he's ter...mayb he terasa oso...told him bt ryan oso...he kinda feel it 2...den ask him nt 2 encourage him oso larrr...hahaha...den after dat jz had dinner wit him oso at sun teik gei...da laz sms from was dem funny...he rit baby i coming lor..lol...kakakaka...den siti saw d...damn funny man...me oso going geli d...hahaha....haizzz...jz let everyting b as it should b lar...go with da flow...vemal i realy duno...he ask siti oso izit somebdy chasing me...IT guy izit...den she jz pura wat oso duno...gud actor realy...hahaha...dun care lar....yerrr...tinking should i ask him...aiyer..beta dun lar...i tink...nt realy gud 2 ask him oso...even though he said ya true 4 u...den so wat...i nt gona accept him oso wert...so wats da point asking him....haizzzz..so jz let him b lar...

strawberry & durian...blogging....SAD>>>

hahaha...damn funny when me n siti started 2 create names 4 jacky n ryan....jacky 4 strawberry cz i luv it...n he luv it 2....hehehe...den durian 4 ryan is kinda bcz he's like a durian...even though i stil like 2 eat durian....i tink mayb i realy getting in2 jacky...he's realy kinda funny...den can realy chat like hell wit him...ytd ask me abt who is da guy whom i rejected...haizzz...in da end giv him 3 chances...1st he said sasi...hahaha..den ryan...den at laz duno v wat....vitas....v duno wat else...even da name vinod came out....hahaha...damn funny...den at laz oso tel him d is him...bt stil i din say da name...den sud dc...cc he sms me say sory...den said if he tel out den nex yr he wont grow taller...wakaka...i reply him saying dat means if nex yr he din grow taller means he say out lar....den he replied forget it...wakakaka....sei sor lou...den when i say da poodle hug so song...he say hug me oso vry song ar...hahah if oni i can lar...den alwaz saying his hs gt 2 empty rooms...he jz living alone ter...when he gt no clas den he go bac 2 langkap n help his mom in kopitiam...guai zai larr...alwaz helping...

everybody is blogging oso...kee jian yi lee yy...2 bad i cant let dem c my blog...if nt realy kantoi...knt larrr....2 much of private stuff....confessions n al....haizz..tak boleh lar....crazy stuff oso...den jian gt a foto wit me...saying sud miss me....den yy oso comment saying miss her too....haizzz...sud feel like so distanced from dem d.....hopefully nex time can go kl den gila abit wit dem....hahaha....

Our Japanese Name!
yokeyee - 正紫优樱 . Chingu yoke iee
see kee - 吉原森月 . Fuongu see kee
yi lee - 藤湾优日 . Aruri Roke ii ree
yen wei - 优文 . Michirure Chie ien uei
lai wei - 伦文 . Tan rai uei
li jian - 山菜伦月 . Fupuon ri jianu
hui yin - 百紫合樱 . Tan fui iinu

SAD....Single....Available....Desperate....hahahaha....seriously true...as kevin say jz nw...went yum cha at olivenz cafe....saw da kbox winner...duno wat name d....kinda mayb partners ter or frens working ter....den da guy laz time alwaz selling pirated cd...working in da kitchen i tink...kinda beta job lar...gud turning...ya bac 2 da sad topic...we act hv passed a quarter of our life d...stil dis is da achievement i've reached....stil single...nobody aiming 4 act....den toking bt coll....gals market value drop as yrs go by...while guys fishing target goes up as yrs go by....hahahaha...true n funny theory...kinda had a nice chat 2dy...we tok bt 2 n more hrs d....cz derek gt his leg injured...sud call me...cc i tink so long oni can recall who da hell is derek....hahaha....so cancel clas d...den joanne sort of kena alot from us....toking bt her life den carrier...we kp saying she realy sked n tink of 2 many tings..i wonder if i do dat oso...got 2 change larr..bt at least i'm kinda beta den her i tink....hehehe...

talk over.....

yaya...tok 2 vemal d bt everyting...funny we started in da car again...on da way 2 mar poh 4 dinner after working til 8pm...act 7.30pm....den tok tok tok....den go hm nite oso on9 chat....den settle d lar....jacky oso duno y sud sms me after work....den chat until on9 msn oso....hahaha....funny lar him...den ntg much oso larr..quite tiring day act....nt going 2 joyce's b'day ler i tink....smsed joyce d oso....den 2mr hv 2 ganti zee work oso....den hv 2 go straight 2 dance mayb i tink....

butterfly lovers....33

watched dis movie wit jinyi n yi lee...kinda same story line as romeo n juliet....wer da gal pretends 2 commit suicide...den da guy oso tot it's real...jz kinda died after al da wounds...den da gal wk up n jz wana die 2geter....sad ending indeed...bt stil 2geter as butterflies....a pair....sweet n sad story...sort of made me cry...den hyin jz told me ytd nite bt her khidir n cy...complicated realy...she broke down in da bar n cried alot of times...stuck in between...sort of confessed 2 cy oso...pity her...hopefully she wil get herself out of dis soon....den yy stil in2 da guy..tay jun lin i tink da name is...she sort of...dun realy care wat ppl tink...haizzz...c hw she goes wit dis lar...

no idea why...so be it...

y arrr..both jacky n ryan oso can guess geh....haizzzz...sumbody after me wo....wat da hell 2 ans...i oso duno...haiyerrr....jz dun care oni larr....wats ter 2 tink bt...2dy whole day oso din even look at him...dun mention toking or wat lar...haizz i oso duno larrr...y da hell am i feeling ldt....mayb cz i'm sick oso...den nobody wana bother me oso...so be it larrr....

Abel's kinda life & love

^(*MeOw*)^ says:
why is everyting happening like hw it is??
^(*MeOw*)^ says:
u gt an ans 4 dat??
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
bcoz tats life
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
life is so interesting.....eveything happens in a different way....it always surprises us
(*MeOw*)^ says:
bt nt al surprises r fun
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
yea tats y it happens all in a diff way which is nt how we see it
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
things dun always go the way it wants
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
then life would b so so perfect
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
when life is so perfect
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
tats nt life anymore
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
its living da way its planned in our way
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
which is nt fun anymore
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
life is all bout downs n ups.....so yea
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
=P
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
lol
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
jus like a roller coaster.....when it goes down n up oni fun ma
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
if its jus a straight line its boring
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
life comes with tears n joy
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
so yea tat makes everythin in our life
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
so sumtimes we mus thank our sadness

A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
errr i guess so
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
as in u wil think of her every single day
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
every morning u wake up u wil think of her
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
every nite b4 u sleep wil think of her
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
at times u wil wonder wats she doin
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
is there any guys after her
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
when guys gets close with her ur jealous
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
u would always wanna see her
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
even though theres no conversation but being next 2 her makes u happy adi
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
n whenever anythin happens shes da 1st person u wanna tell
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
n when u think of her u wil smile
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
n u wil care wat she thinks alot
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
n whens she sad u wwil wonder alot
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
n when she treats u differently u wil think alot
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
u wil notice everypart of her
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
eveythin she wears
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
u wil notice changes in her attitude character
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
u wil sense when shes moody or sad
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
u wil look at her when shes not looking n telling her in ur heart I LOVE YOU
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
u wil do watever it takes 2 make her happy
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
so yea to me tats wat happen swhen ur in love i guess
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
but da main thing 4 a real love 2 start is 2 be close frens 1st then oni love wil arrouse if shes da right one
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
tats my opinion la


A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
being alone is always needed
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
its where u reflect ur life n settle down to see if ur right on track in ur life
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
r u moving da right way
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
r u making da right choices
A.b.E.l.F.o.O.n.G.z.H.e.N.h.U.i. says:
coz at times we r so caught up with da ways of da world n our frens we tend 2 b off track n fall

haizzzz

why do u do dis 2 me....haizzzz.....act 2dy mood kinda gud oso...den nw...haizzz...damn teruk....feel like crying d....y da hell he say al those stufff...da dream gal ting somemore...waste time..no use...wat if da dream gal dun dream of u....kep repeating dun trust him dun trust him....haizzz...headache nw realy...jz singing 2 teardrops on my guitar...tears coming out d...life comes wit surpises everybody says...well sometimes it's hard 2 tk it...haizzz...i realy duno...so long since i've cried...2dy went sushi wit jacky ryan zee n siti...den met al da leos ter...siti tk da card wit her...den hv 2 lend from leos so damn paiseh realy...cm bac...ryan gave me da crispy snack fish ting...n oso da smal glas bottle wit da sand scroll rainbow colored shell...n da shell wit my name wrongly written act...i tink he showing 2 me d larrr....anoter complicated 1 way luv...haizzz...y am i alwaz stuck....talking wit abel...he noe d...anoter person...haizzz...wat 2 do..i oso duno...

just another day of work n clas....

as usual...clas den work...no no act is da other way round...den gt 2 a news bt joash n yep...joash was act making fun abt yep n joyce having wild sex n al...den yep gt angry n sms him scold or smtg larrr...den joash took da sms n lodged a police report...den fotostate it 4 da lecturers...realy damn gila...go until dat xtend....nuts realy...den vemal was telling showing me da sms yep send him...den asking bt sushi 2mr...stupid vemal go n ask in fron of zee...haizzz...den nw i ask ryan n jacky oso d...mah fan sms so much den oni keng dim...ryan i tink kep wana fetch me lerr...den dinner somemore...gik sum wo when he tot i wana b alone wit jacky...i guess smtg wrong de lar him...haizzz...dun giv hope again..pls pls...jacky jz chatting oni lerr..i tink he stil like yand e lerr...den feel kinda wierd oso larr...tinking he like yan b4....haizzz...bt nice 2 chat lar him...jz giv me da tao sar peng...pandan de realy nice...den vemal saw n said ppl go penang buy 4 u somemore...ish ish...cn hear da jealousy inside...den 2mr sasi gona fetch me larr 2 davin'd b'day..olivenz cafe...den 2mr going sushi..i tink sure we gona b late 2 sundra's clas....wakakaka....dun care larr..go parade eat sushi...enjoy enjoy...den dance jz nw...derek again..damn fas he dance until...damn ganas oso...turn until i wana fall down d...den da gal mayb his gf larrr...quite nice realy..dance well oso....kinda nice gal...den anoter guy dancing wit da gal...when we went hm...da gal called leng lui n say he kep looking at us den duno hw 2 dance wit her d....hahaha..damn damn funny....

trouble trouble....

haizzz...cc tot nobody wil noe...den everybody noes bt da pangkor trip...den vemal go ballistic d....ish ish....went sushi king eat...wit kok seng...den kok seng started by asking heard u go pangkor ar...den start d...den drive like shit ldt...gila fella totaly...den in clas bang here n ter...den jz nw oni sms say sory sory....concern everyting ldt....haizzz...wat 2 do...den davin's b'day party dis thurs...olivenz cafe...den joyce nex wed...FMS...duno wer oso...haizz..den yy n hy both toking bt their probs d....hyin wit 2 guys again...sort of 2geter wit khidir bt den quite close wit da chee yong oso...den yy wit her virgin ting...worried larr....jz can oni support dem as much as i can...

Pangkor trip.....hmmm....

firstly took da ferry...den saw some cute guys ter oso...after dat my 1st ride on a motorbike....hahahaha...damn funny...i dun even noe hw 2 put on da helmet....den realy syok lar da 1st time....so windy...n driving so fas somemore....den reach NIPAH BAY VILLA....act nt exactly wat i expected....cz tey kep saying we gona stay in a hotel...den cc it's chalet...n nt da type beside da beach somemore....bt den staying ter d...stil ok larrr.....everyting stil fine....after dat jz lie around....den went ronda....hahaha...dats da term 4 it....ronda....den halfway...duno wer we going oso....cc rain somemore....den stopped awhile den continue again...went bac bath den went diner....chinese stall....lala rice....damn spicy oso....den went bac...2 da beach.....tey drank tiger....den me n siti jz walk around.....sat ter...looking at da sea....da sky....stars...moon....oh ya toking bt moon...remind me of vemal....at 1st in da bus....he sud smsed zee asking if i'm going 2geter wit dem....den said do tk care of her....haizzzz...told zee jz ans ok...bt he called bac n ask who told him....sasi i tink...den said oni zee vinod n mervin going.....haizzz...fell bad lar tipu him....although nt from my mouth larrr...stil jz feel uneasy...den zee was having flu d after da rain....stil wana go swim in da sea....den sud ride da bike said go kering badan.....me n vinod tot he was going da way 2 pekan...den we jz 4low until damn far oni....a guy turn bac....den cc it's nt zee....den sked d lar.....go bac damn fas...along da road gt some gang somemore....scary act....den da dark part oso....vinod was driving damn fas bac....as if da road neva ends....he sud asking me r we going da rit way...i oso gt sked d...den later say oni 1km more....haizzzz....den cant find him....gt worried d....siti oso like ntg oni....den after dat oni tel me she jz cover up oni...damn wory oso...den when we going bac...oni zee cm bac....siti gt so mad at him d....den chat abit den oni we slp....nex day duno wer 2 slp dat nite....after dat we go round....wait 4 vinod 2 shit...den money from mervin oso....den went round looking 4 rooms....at laz decide 2 stay at CORAL BAY RESORT....vinod kep saying can save rm10....hahaha..den cc we hv 2 pay extra rm 72 4 da late check out....haizzzz....den jz went 4 da room...4 person in a room....after toking so long 4 nt paying da deposit....damn funny...tey kep argueing den ask me y i so angry...den money again..haizzzz....after dat stupid vinod like nt syok d oso....looking at me like 1 kind oni....den went da sea again....ya i sud gt period somemore....haizzz...jz swim oso larrr....vinod jz treating as if i'm invisible oni...geram larrr....den beta d....go bac bath den went 4 dinner...bac 2 nipah bay....hahahaha...damn funny...when we stay at nipah bay...we eat in town...when we stay in town....we eat at nipah bay...den buy da jagung bakar...realy nice lar...den later jz had fun in da room....hitting vinod n al....fooling around oni....den zee n siti went down 2 buy beer....left me n vinod oni....den jz slp ter....watching da tv...den jz joking oso...playing wit my hair n head....nice touch act....den i said nice...he jz continued doing 4 a while....hehehe....da sort of feeling....den i pinch him abit oso....he said nice i jz continued a while oso...hahaha...den tey came bac...drank da beer...simply say i'm drunk again....hahaha....den jz went 2 slp after finish watching da movie...changing lanes n duno wat movie somemore...den siti jz slp wit zee on da tilam..den me n vinod on da bed....slp quite fas oso...den dis morn...lazy 2 wk up oso...me da laz....den vinod whole day oso like nt syok oni.....duno wats his prob....as if i'm invinsible realy...n nt gentleman at al....haizzz....taking so many stuff den jz like cant c oso....haizzzz....as if i'm nt welcomed at al..ish ish...stupid him....den taking da bus hm....i hv 2 sit alone at da far behind somemore......den i saw da gal asking if he wana sit behind wit me....i tink his reaction should b shaking his head wit fear....haizzz....stupid guy....tot so gud of him....say wat pay 4 me....food no ned 2 wory abt...haizzz..al crap oni....realy guys cant b trusted....their mouth wil alwaz b sweet whn tey wan smtg from u....den after dat....everyting b4 dat is jz play oni...ntg serious at al....haizzzz....learn from lessons lar michelle....dun b so dumb 2 tink dat everybody is so gud 2 u...u r such an innocent gal....dun expect so much from anybody....u can oni trust urself n nobody else...do remember dat gal....

going Pangkor!!!!!

2mr fri d lar...gona go pangkor....da keet nyeng n dila oso 4lowing nw...n we gona slp wit dem somemore....sure tey gona wear bikini d lar....haizzz..dun care so much lar...jz gona enjoy myself 2 da max wit siti....hahaha....den 2dy kena shoot kao kao by al of dem....haizzz....din even say anyting den simply kena shoot....den yep planning joyce's b'day...exact day on da 23rd...den celeb 4 her on 22nd....oct...rm10 again 4 present....den eat gona use somemore i tink....haizzz.den pangkor hv 2 pay rm63 somemore....ish ish....so so feel like buying bikini larr...duno gt ant in pangkor....hahaha....sort of packed d....hv 2 get up early 2mr morn...pack again....chuck everyting inside....ntg much lerrr....gona go until sun..cant practice d...so cant blog oso d....hope 4 a nice trip den!!!!!

hoping...found anoter nice song...rhumba...

Come as you are...by jaci lavesquez...feat louis...nice nice...realy nice feeling dancing 2 dis song...luv it...den 2dy damn it stupid dumb ramesh....gila realy...when suki tk da papers in....he say ramesh took da NST...den chelvi later ask wer is it...den i said mayb stil wit ramesh...nt sure oso....den later ramesh call down n ask did i saw him taking it or i tot oni....den saying i'm accusing him...wat help me taking in da newspapers....wat da fuck....dumb shit realy...wat so big deal bt it...stil asking wat am i trying 2 do...wat can i do by saying u mayb took da papers....shit it....arrrrgggggghhhh....feel like jz kicking his asss.....ish ish ish.....herh....dummy...dun let me c him...i jz stare or wont even tink he exist....arggghhhhh....den pangkor should b going larrr...hv 2 pay ler nw....mayb 1 room somemore...den sasi noe bt it oso...came over when we toking all...haizzzzz....c lar hw...i tink bt my swimming suit oso....god....

lovely song totaly...

cant get my head off of dis song...totaly awesome...luv it so much...esp piano version....this is me...den jz listening song whole day...work n clas...den gt my cheque at lazzz....yy jz send me da guy's foto..nt exactly wat i tot...as 4 her description....kinda nt my type...looks quite fat act....duno larrr...hahaha...den pangkor ting stil duno hw lar....haizzz...sud zee sms ask can go ant....i oso duno hw 2 ans....nt realy dat wana go act....

This Is Me - Demi Lovato
I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myse
lfIt's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you,
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you,
I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

CamP RocK RoxxXXXxxXXXxxx!!!!!!

damn nice lar da movie realy....luv it n da songs inside....damn lum man when joe sang da song gotta find u 2 demi....oh my god....realy fall 4 him d....realy luv a guy who can sing 2 me jz like dat....sure damn damn nice...n romantic....god i'm dreaming again....den sud feel like singing again..da fire burning again...hopefully i can do beta dis weekend..aikzz..cant go practise dis weekend...going pangkor...mayb gota fork out money oso...haizzz..den as usual work again 2dy...ntg much...bt vemal was kinda wierd 2dy....neva tok 2 me oso....den went hm early...came late....den lunch wit sasi kok seng ah peh n talvin...joking bt me again...funny names even....3 guys...doreamon of cz da 1st 1...den vemal wit his waja bcomes VW volkswagon....den abel wit his wira bcms A&W....hahaha...dats wat i guess larrrr...should b i tink...bt nt much kinda feeling 4 both 3 larrr...haizzzz.....stil no feeling....jz dreaming again...no target at al....

Ninth God Parade

damn early morn wk up d...den went 2 watch da parade at hewlo street...duno hw 2 spell lar...den saw al sorts of 'tong zi'...tey even perform poking da steel tru da mouth on da street....den sud ms lim called 2 ask if da lib is open ant 2dy...duno y lar sud....haizzz....i oso duno rem ter's even such a ting d....den went breakfas....shun ling...nt bad ad rice ter...den kevin gt a new haircut...dis time realy nice 1...at least more yeng lar....hahaha...den went hm jz do da t6 ques...stil hvn fin..gona continue 2mr....sukvin gona come early i tink...bt well she comes early everydy...den yy stil in2 da guy...duno lar her...sometimes diferent...sometimes da same...den jacky n ryan stil begging me 2 go penang...haizzz..i tink beta dun go ler....nt ned 2 fan so much...wory dis wory dat...haizzzz....den saw sasi's foto wit carmen...feeling 1 kind...bt nt dat much...i tink ntg much 4 him d larr...act ntg much 4 any1 larrr....mayb jacky abit...bt den i kinda mind dat he like yan b4.....haizzz..jz enjoy larrrr...so so in2 jay's new song...dao xiang...damn damn nice...jacky bought da new album...rm118 my god...hahaha...

Hanging out alotzzz....

enjoyed shopping with jian dem...went out jz walk around...on thurs i tink...if i'm nt mistaken...haha..fos open d....den yum cha while ldt...den went hm oso lar..ntg much 2 do.....

then fri went siti's hs...sukvin sud say smtg hapen den cant mk it....so oni me vemal n jian yao went....hahaha....den after dat went ebox...ya dats da one...which is ytd...friday....

dis few days...went out yum cha n al sort of outings...ebox...damn funny lar al of dem....IT gang...jacky ryan szehow kevin went....saw kevin's hp wit yan as wallpaper somemore...den jacky stil in2 her i tink...den both kep on persuading 2 go penang again...haizzz...stil confused lar me....duno wat da hell 2 do...haizzz..den at nite went halo cafe...candy was there...realy nice lar her singing...den cc 2dy i'm so teruk...da voice like floating oni....spend damn lot of money lar...jz tk rm500 from da bank...den 4 days oni bt rm 153 gone d....haizzzzz....so dead....den later going pangkor somemore....2mr dad gona b bac....hahaha...hapy hapy...so long din c him d....den nov mayb going kl...genting mayb....uncle sunny's house warming party....den 2dy bought da pants....in fos....hehehe...nice nice...gona wear 2mr morn....oh ya den dis morn went breakfas n jogging at pologround....damn nice lar sitting on da swing....hahaha...fun fun...gona go nex week oso mayb...cc if i gt da urge again....

another boring day...Selamat Hari Raya!!!!

2dy is raya...so hol again...tot going 2 zee's hs...den in da end...sms sukvin oso no reply...den siti oso like blur oni..haizz...tot so larr...neva gona work lar any outing among us.....den jz tv again...on9 again...den dance oso oni 5 of us went...jz dance abit den went yum cha....no cute guys 2 gap oso....den mc d buy fries...sat ourside at da swing...sud came a mouse...so went in 2 watch last dance again....miss da show act...den came hm on9...ku ku merajuk duwan 2 fetch me somemore jz nw...haizzzz....den sms wit vemal...stupid ass...go 2 da dance place wana look 4 me....dumb ass realy...saw joanne...i dun tink she saw him oso....den after dat smsed a while wit his fren...dun even noe da name...16 yr old guy...wit a gf in kl...like smtg diferent...gals hot without exposing demselves...hahaha...funny guy...den vemal smsed...i replied den he din reply..kep saying he din gt da sms...argggh...realy mk me mad...den da way he said it...damn rude...mk me mad somemore...den he stil duno wat i'm mad at oso..nw jz of9 n went slping i tink...stupid dumb assss...argggghhh....den sungkai hotspring nt gona go lar i tink....haizzz...lazy oso..2mr going parade i tink...den cc da nick of hyin's quite cute lar realy....hahaha...if me i tink i gona b attracted oso....wakakaka....

beta mood again...

2dy feels alot beta after chatting wit hyin 4 bt 3 hrs i tink...totaly fun....so damn long time neva did dat....she told her luv story n al...funny larr..vomit in da club...dancefloor somemore...den kiss a malay guy again...going gila...den act we sort of feel da same larr...towards everyting....luv life n al...thank god i stil can tok n tel everyting 2 herr....da oni 1 i tel my secrets 2 realy....den 2dy totaly played alot...4 guys holding me z 2 rit pandi meow on my hands...gila guys...den went 2 c dem play futsal...vemal gt a cute dude ter...smi smart fella...from kedah matric....vemal said he was in2 dis gal 4 bt 1 yr....alicia cheong....nice dude seems like it....2 bad he ald gt somebody in mind....hahaha...den jz nw pasar malam...met quite alot of ppl...hong ken...chong aun..smi fellas...vemal's frens i tink...den jung yeow...phoon kah yee...da clubbing guy...joanne's fren's fren ar...den who else i dun rem d...ate alot oso...den sat down at da kopitiam sort of shop...chatted abit den bac hm...vemal sms said he was gona bring jian yao 2 an illegal race n den papaya shop somemore...hahaha...gila bt in da end din go nw end up in fren's hs...den kenji sms 2 say tey gona plan 2 go sungkai hotspring....hahha...duno if i should go larr...stil tinking n tinking...thurs...2mr should b going zee's open hs....den thurs parade or hotspring...den fri siti's hs....sat mayb carmen's b'day....sun i dun tink gt anyting lar....ya sing k duno when oso....ahahaha...fully packed....den sasi gona go seremban 2mr...visit ailing grandma...kok seng going kl oso...den chatting wit chia chia oso...nice lar chatting wit her...din noe ter was so many stories....kseng was in2 anoter gal b4 her...den sud confess 2 her....b4 dat gt a gal in2 him oso...she help her somemore...bt end up being 2geter wit him....hahaha...funny luv triangle...den nw ni i noe fangying gt a bf oso....somemore 4 yrs n more d.....wasai...den ervina n nic bt 1 yr n 2 mths d....hahaha...n she said nic cant gt jun so in da end gt ervina instead....hahaha....knew alot of secrets 2...bt stil keeping between me n myself again...hahaha....oh ya somemore...saw da foto 2dy....da 1 i tied up my hair...it's behind vemal's ic....hahah...funny he wrote smtg behind it somemore....smtg like he wil neva 4get me 4 da rest of da time....hahaha.....den nw wan a shot which oni he wil hv...gila guy lar realy....