Single & Enjoying

well...ter's some realy bad parts abt my 1st love...it ended after bt 1 mth n 2 wks i tink...jz after he came bac from man u match in KL...he is seriously damn damn mad n pissed off...bt den...wat am i 2 do...i 've said wateva i should say...
I MISS DA OLD TIMES WHEN WE WERE JZ FRENS
I PREFER DA NO STRESS AMONG FRENS
I FEEL UNEASY HOLDING HANDS WITH HIM
I AM SKED TO BE WITH HIM IN PUBLIC
I DUN TINK I LOVE HIM ENUF
I DUN LIKE REPORTING
dats y...with da above reasons...it's gud enuf 4 me 2 break it off n be free again...i dun regret doing dat...i totaly feel relieved...it's like a damn huge burden for me...jz hanging ter...n i'm suffocating...nw totaly free bird...do as i wish...so now jz enjoy my single life...he's nt talking 2 me at all...n btw i was totaly pissed off when jian yao told me dat he said i simply go n order expensiv stuff in indulgence when we jz had dessert ter....wat da fuck man...haizzz n i posted smtg bt it in my public blog...wateva nw...i dun care...al hope lost after dat...i bet he said more den dat 2 other ppl...bt den wateva...I DUN CARE!!!

Unavailable

hmmm...on 10th of June...i was officially not single anymore...he asked...r u willing to commit in2 a relationship??? n i answered...we could give it a try...so dats done...i'm no longer available...should i be hapy or sad??? i tink da answer would be both!!! hmmm...i'm somehow hapy 2 have him n doing private stuff which seems rit after dis official decision...bt den i would lose alot of other opportunities our ter...bt den it's nt like it mz b 4eva rit...so jz let it a chance 4 me n him...n c hw everyting goes...up till nw...al da gals noe bt it...guys i tink would hv known...in coll jz TJ shal sasi n abel noe i tink...i kinda feel like ks n chia kinda guess it too...i tink yep noe smtg too...hahaha...den ayisyah of cz...feeling so comfortable wit him watching movie ytd in his hs...love it esp when he hugs me tight...hehehe...well...kinda stop him going further by holding his hands....hahaha...kinda good tactic...

bt den jz nw...somehow seriously mood out...hmmm mayb i kinda expected too much from him...i admit it...i actualy expected him 2 pay 4 me...bt den nope...n he din offer 2 help tk my stuff...nope...so kinda pissed...bt den come 2 tink of it...he left da $$ in my bag din even ask 4 it...jz ask me 2 use it...dats realy generous actualy...den he's kinda pk rit...after using so much on his dad present...an ipod costing rm599...hmmm...den din realy talk 2 him much oso jz nw...somehow it jz doesn't feel rit jz nw...mayb cz of period or wat...or jz so many guys around ter jz nw...hmmm....when i'm bac from kl...jz c hw it goess...

XOXO

hehehe...dat day duno y sudenly damn moody d...den he was standing so close 2 me...jz leaning on him i felt so safe n secured n warm...da rush i wonder is dat wat i'm looking for al along dis while...hmmm maybe...n den went on another car ride as usual around my garden...den he held my hand somehow...it felt realy good...dun even wan him 2 let go...n den he asked permission 2 kiss me...he was so funny...dat i cant stop laughing...in da end he did it...bt he was nt good at it though...after dat he told me i was like a pro..hahaha...i wonder realy...hehehe...bt den dat time i realy duno wat was i doing actualy...felt so weak n vulnerable when i'm with him...voice went so soft...hahaha...bt den i stil hvn gt a decision...i want his company so badly dat i often tink of him at nite until i cant slp...n i duno y i jz dun dare 2 commit...i was sked realy...sked of wat ppl would tink...sked dat i cant giv him enuf...sked dat i may fall 4 anybody else so easily...bt after da talk wit mum...its realy true...we cant tinking so much as time wont b waiting 4 us...i tink i wil regret if i had nt made dis decision...sked 2 lose him too nw...missing him...so wana tel him my decision...hehehehe...bt sked oso...actualy realy sked...bt wit him everyting wil jz b fine...no more minding other ppl's view...i'm hapy den its enuf...:)

Hurt

alot alot lately....family is nt going on 2 well.....ku ku as usual talking stuff n all...i jz hv 2 get it in n stuck wit it....ntg i cn do 4 nw....

wai kit stil trying 2 pay 4 everyting n fetching me...kenny dun wana lose a fren bcz of me....haizzz...sad again...

study is like stuck or wateva...i realy duno....sked oso...bt stil....

WAT DA HECK AM I DOING????

so long since i've cried...relieved 2 cry 2dy actualy....feel alot beta after crying...

JUST HAVE TO GONE ON LIVING...

The End

after da talk all...we decided being hapy in between....bt den hapy moments doesn't last long...it's time 4 da flower 2 die...mayb it wil realy b beta dis way....i cried n cried jz nw....cant stop....esp after listening 2 da song SOMETIMES LOVE JUST AIN'T ENOUGH...haizzz....dats wat i was trying2 say....damn hurt ler wat he said 2dy....realy heavy words....mayb he feel beta dat way....easier 2 let go...

everyting started from his jealousy again....he saw da foto of me n jason dancing in houz....den adding on mike stuff....yy dem were actualy playing a joke in my blog's chat box....den he blived it n gone damn sad....tot i had a bf....haizzz...den plus dat day gerard playing wit me....i was actualy feeling quite uneasy of him doing dat....sort of tickling my back...near my bra strip behind....den vemal was so damn angry...asking what da fuck are u doing....haizzz...if he stayed so much jz a litle bit longer...he would hv jz punched him in da face....

of cz as usual...he ignored me dat few days...i was so fed up i din even wana ask him wat was his prob....i knew smtg was wrong d....den we talked again...bt dis time it din end so well...we gt distant somehow...i was sick...alwaz going hm after coll...neva talk much oso...he din care much oso...so jz end up like nw....i treated him quite bad laz few days...tot it wil do him some gud...time 4 him 2 move on...i actualy told dat 2 jian yao laz nite....den i was like tinking thru mayb jz let us hv a chance n spend dis yr 2geter hapily....

bt den he wanted 2 talk....okey...as usual he was da one talking...i cant voice out even a word...duno wat 2 say at al...he said he wana move on....he should....he kept da flower alive...so nw it's time....he wil stop showing me dat he loves me....dis time he want to....realy....n he asked me DIS IS WAT U WAN RIT? just answer me yes or no....how could i ever answer dat....haizzz....trying hard 2 constrain everyting...nt wana tel him everyting...i duno y....mayb i torture myself abit so i dun feel like i owe him dat much....

chatted wit jian yao n yy abt it....jian yao wil talk 2 him i tink...i duno....watvea happens wil happen....eventualy....dis is hw tings wil end....yy said my reaction was abit 2 much 4 nt liking him....yes i do like him abit....bt den it's nt enuf 2 b wana b wit him...den if i dun wan him 2 move on...wat should he b doing....dats torture....2 cruel d....so ter's ntg i cn do other den jz let him go n move on...well dats wat i was hoping rit....even though i dun wan it to....if da bez way....i realy duno if i cn stil b as close wit him as b4....i dun tink so...it's too much 4 me...u wana move on...bez 4 me wil b jz move away from ur life i tink....

Vemal

laz nite chating alot wit shalani...nw i noe...he was realy quite mad abt me going out alone wit other guys...haizzz.....dats y dat day so cold 2 me lerrr...stil wana deny...haizzzz.....den emily actualy asked if he was fetching me....den he said i din even wana ask him 2 fetch me....sobzzzzz....wat da hcek lerrrr....i oso duno wat i'm tinking d....according 2 shalani...i kinda like him ald....am i realy falling 4 him?????i realy duno lerrrr....i duno wat i wan d....i stil wan my freedom....bt i wan him 2 treat me special...haizzz....i noe i noe...so so unfair 4 him....hw cn he tolerate wit me alwaz going out wit other guys....it wil totaly b hell 4 him.....feeling so bad torturing him ldt....so so so wana tok tings out wit him....mayb dis wed bt kenny dem ask 4 movie d....so mayb 2mr after swiming or thur ni ask him go movie lerr....he say gona treat it as a date....hahaha....c hw it goes...XD

still tinking...lost...

he jz dun get it lerr...it's jz gal stuff mayb....or mayb i'm da oni 1 tinking so much....i mean y do i care so much if he's cold or hot 2 me....wat da hell is dis...he says he's lost 2...n y is dat so....haizzzzz....at hm ku ku stil wont bother me much....it's like sudenly everybody who cared 4 me doesn't wana bother me anymore....is ter a prob wit me???? n wats dat????

dat chong stil pestering 2 c me dis wkend..haizzz...n i jz remember dat i've gt dance clas 2mr which i hv 2 skip again....sobzzzz....wat da heck lerrr....wonder if i wil enjoy 2mr???

reflection???? i realy duno who or wat i'm doing nw...am i doing da rit ting or da wrong ting???? wats being myself....who am i????? i realy dun noe.....

Swim and talk

swim 4 2 days d...n hv 2 wear bikini 4 da 1st time 2dy....hahaha...stil ok larrr...2dy oni danny kevin n kenny....hehehe....den after dat makan abit...keropok...asking me who is leng zai...hahaha...jacky ler stil....if he's after me wil i accept him...mayb i wil i tink...hahaha...den szehow nt so much i tink...kenny admit oso he's nt virgin...2 ex...kevin oso 2 ex...danny same oso....hahaha....me 0 lerrr....tey say it as if dating is a realy horrible ting....n their opinion on me is dat...i can do everyting....study...club...dance...piano...drink...talk alot...funny...smart...haizzzz....bt den nobody appreciates dat enuf 2 love me...other den vemal of cz....dat day sing k...he's realy al over me....haizzz..duno lerrr...duno wat 2 tink d....mayb shouldn't tink so much oso...

Am i relying too much on him???

i tink da answer would b yes i am...haizzz....dis morn he was like damn duno wat...mayb cz i tinking 2 much oso...he seemed so cold 2wards me....din tok much wit me...jz sped off during lunch time....den i was left alone....amy den going 4 sushi...i duwan 2 4low....so jz stand ter like duno wat....duno wer 2 go oso...duno who 2 4low oso...sudenly feeling so lost....TJ saw ashley oso cant c me d....in da end 4low him 2 eat wit sasi dem n chan heng...should hv known such a day would come anyhow...haizzzz....it's actualy me tinking 2 much....bt den it wil b reality sooner or later....so i should b getting used 2 it nw....again n again...bt stil everybody hv days like dis....jz anoter day rit....nobody care so much den myself...haizzzzzzz.....stil tinking n tinking...

NO BIG DEAL!!!!!

hahaha....kinda get over him d....well seriously no big deal..tinking bt it den listening 2 vemal jian yao n mum said....i do dat 2 ppl 2 rit...mayb jz nt rit 4 him...actualy iive been lying 2 myself 2...dat nite i was nt feeling much gud it him oso...kinda awkward situation...hahahaha.....so jz go on being frens....dat day pc fair 2nd day he sms me sudenly asking whether i was working...he cant c me oso...hahah..n i cant find his booth oso...hiding in da corner....saw da 2 amc gals working 4 dmobile....tipu me lerr neva hire part time workers...duwan me 2 work ter ni ler i tink...hahaha..wateva larr..i'm hapy n satisfied wit myself nw...current situation....bt den i cant say i was nt hapy seeing him ter...hahaha....

kenny kinda in2 yan...n she oso kinda in2 him....bt den wai kit said he nt trying 2 chase den wat is it he's doing???? hmm i wonder...hv 2 ask him later...ahahaha...

den yy in2 da guy oso dennis...hahaha....waiting 4 more stories from her i tink....

2dy went lunch wit szehow...hahaha...nt in2 me ler i tink...jz dat he recently ask 4 lunch...n i wonder wat da others tink when tey c me...i realy dun like da angelina....i tink she sure gona say smtg 2 dem....her eyes...telling smtg d...bzbody ler her....

Gone...Jerk...Fooled again...

haizzz....so damn sad ler realy....y da hell so stupid go n realy bliv him????
jerk jerk asshole....scold oso no use d nw.....
i hope 2 much d i noe...tot dat somebody would actualy like me n i like him 2....
bt den turn out dat everyting were lies n lies....
noting but lies.....
ytd n 2dy he din sms me oso....
mayb he tinks dat he gt no interest in me anymore....
wat da heck is dis?????
al those he said were jz stupid sweet talk...
talking 2 yy n kee....
tey would b tinking wats wit dis gal again....haizzzz...yeah stupid n dumb as usual....
dumb enuf 2 go n bliv a guy which she barely knew enuf 2 like....
jz crush ler mayb....i duno....
my heart dropped when i c da foto again jz nw in da laz post....
cried jz nw....cant stand d....
bang da wall d dis time seriously....
hw can a guy b like dis....so so cruel......
bt den anoter lesson 2 b learnt...
hw am i gona trust guys anymore....
tey can seriously jz say stuff without even meaning it at al...
n jz 4gt it n let go so fas....after a nite...dats al....
dats all......
fine just forget it.... :(

Back Again!!!! Haizzzz....Not again....

haizzzz....back here again meaning dis cant b allowed in da public blog....once again...


LOVE LIFE....



well...starting wit Krave....2 weeks ago...intro Yu Jin from Kevin....kinda nice guy...looks nt bad....bt kinda bad boy look....den sms everydy....everymorn wil b gud morn....bt neva gud nite....he wil jz fal aslp without notice...haizzzz...n he SMOKES!!!! damn it....stupid shit realy....it was like flirting n reporting 2 him every single day....sms lots n lots....den asking if he hv any chance in courting me....haizzz....stupid enough 2 go n realy bliv it....sweet talk n everyting....guess who's his ex...Vivian Tham & Wai Xin Ling....wat da heck is dis seriously....haizzz...damn damn damn...



He doesn't hv a father....his mum married again i assume in kl nw...den he's been living wit his grandma since young....n his cousin oso...dats wat he told me...den he oni gt a bike...to work in a laptop company...DMobile...he's in2 tattoo...wit his godbro i tink....alwaz watching drama ter....borrow his car oso....city....corolla...kancil...salary around 900+ sumore....study form 6 in anderson...i stil duno his results...i tink it would b bad...laz time was a leo oso....apply 4 usm...bt i doubt dat he wil gt a place.....



den laz nite was da blast....he came 2 fetch me around 11pm...god help me....haizz....his voice was realy nice thru da hp....bt den real voice is like abit duno da hokkien slang according 2 Kevin...tey al were tinking me n him having smtg going on between d....wat da heck...dat obvious again...realy failure man 2 hide anyting....he din realy bother me oso....jz Kenny Kevin Wai Kit more....jz dance n drink....quite alot den damn fas....haizzz...so sad ler....he jz kp on playing cards...den went out 2 smoke...damn it....fuck....haizzz...dissapointed realy....expecting dat da nite would b so fun....den in da end it turn out worse den ever...den he fetch me bac hm...i jz act slp da whole way....i remember Kevin telling me if he did anyting 2 me jz tel him.....hahaha...when we reach d....ter was dis moment wer he stop da car bt did nt ask me 2 wk up....i jz continue pretending...i seriously din noe wat he did or wat was his expresion dat time....haizzz...watvea it is...



telling dis stuff 2 yy n jian jz nw...sumore christina...hahaha...yay da queen....tey al told me nt 2 rush in2 anyting.....bt seriously i'm nt....jz wana noe more bt him....bt until nw al i heard r nt gud stuff at al...haizzz...Kevin told me dat he was suppose 2 work at da shop wit him...den somehow da job dissapeared....n he neva told him....haizzz....he said laz time he was a vry vry gud fren....bt nw doubtful d....haizzzz...he ask me 2 wear specs ler....true ler actualy...hw long hv 2 noe him????my god jz 2 weeks....wat is dis man?????? insane lar realy.....crazy...out of my mind...dig my own grave again....stupid....



as christina said...he din reply me much 2dy....i get da hint lar totaly....duno hw many hrs late d...neva told me y oso....haizzz...und ler und ler....sad sad.....lack of interest d....duno wat da hell he tinks...ok i'm nt gud enuf??? mayb 4 him....haizzz wateva....jz tk crush as an ENTERTAINMENT!!!!! wateva da ending may b....it's jz 4 fun....hahaha....dats seriously a gud idea....if oni i could b so positive.....mayb i can...hehehe....sure i cn.....if he realy care n wan me....


He wont smoke in front of me....
He wont reply so late without any reason...
He wont leave me alone in da bar...
He would care for me...



al da above was nt done...so proven he is totaly nt in2 me at al....so jz 4gt it!!!!! jz anoter gone case as usual...jz dat dis time i may overly put up my hopes....jz bcz of his sweet talk...haizzzz....stupid realy.....idiot....

~JUST ANOTHER LESSON TO BE LEARNT~

PS: Sukvin sudenly chat wit me in msn...well kinda feel gud toking bac 2 her...hahaha....


Recently i tink Jung Yeow oso kinda in2 me..alwaz sms me....ask 4 movie....yum cha.....work everyting...haizzz...bt nt much feeling...n he's kinda annoying sometimes....talking 2 much.....n smsing 2 much....abit kinda boring d realy...haizzz...2 bad....

stil prom prom prom...

nw i may need 2 sing da song can you feel the love tonight....kinda ok lar nw da song...feeling nt dat nice d....chanele realy cant sing lar dis song...haizzz...sked lar later duno wat she gona tink....1st da keyboard den nw sing somemore.....haizzzz..yam gung....duno wat 2 do lar....c hw lar 2mr...

den ytd uncle chong kinda scold michelle chin until she cry d....haizzz...damn fierce dat i din dare 2 say a word oso....den later he cal me n say sory 4 toking harshly 2 me on da hp...crazy fella...simply scold in fron so many ppl...at nite went 4 thani wit vemal n tj....hahaha....realy break record lar...4.30am oni reach hm....gt lecture from dad lar jz nw...haizzzz...bt i tink mum din noe...hehehe....went houz...den lok lok... den baroom aka devil...den lastly nasmir....saw kim mun n his gang of frens ter...whole nite treat from dem both....hahaha...hapy hapy....den end up at vemal's hs....

da question of masturbating realy shock me....embarassed lar realy....bt den wateva lar...hahaha.....

Found It!!!!! YEAH YEAH!!!!!

look out!!! keyboard solo....damn damn COOLLLLLL!!!!!!
hahahaha...gona hv 2 practice lar i tink...since i'm nt prom at al....totaly beginner.....

AAAAARRRRRGH!!!! KEYBOARD!!!!!!!!

wat lar haizzz...jian yao said it doesn't flow 2geter..den uncle chong said no feeling...haizzzz...sobzzzz...wat am i 2 do....shit shit shit....jz searching n searching da hell.......

Prom King & Queen Nominees Out!!!! oh ya keyboard...

Prom King
1. Sasi
2. Kamal
3. Ivan Goh
4. aikzzzz....i seriously cant remember who else d...hahahaha....

Prom Queen
1. Pin Jun
2. Christina Tan
3. Ayisyah
4. Wenny Wong
5. Sandra Wong

it was realy kinda fake...actualy putting jian yao in2 da nominees den duno y tey took it out...mayb tey tink he's nt dat cool enuf 4 da competition....haizzz..wat da heck lar...well i tink i gt bt 3 votes....hahaha...wateva lar...nw gona play da keyboard oso dat nite....jz go on wit it...cant go sing k oso 2mr...sobzzz.....

Result day...!!!!!!

yes yes yes i pass everyting!!!! PASS!!!!!! hahahaha...so damn hapy after waiting so long 4 da resultss....most ppl pass...jian yao n yuk ming failed t5....quite alot failed t5...i tink oni 2 guys left in our clas nw...others r jz gals....den mee hui oso passed t5 6 7....hahahaha....
sasi kaho talvin satvin oso passed all....pin jun christina failed al....abel oni pas law....haizzz...
so dats abt it...met dusit in jusco jz nw....hvn check his result bt i tink he failed lar...sad again in fb...2mr going kl sending yy n yl off 2 aus....al gone.....i'll jz stay n fin everyting...n 1 more gud news...i may b playing da keyboard 4 prom nite.....hehehe....true u neva noe wats ahead of u....met ryan oso jz nw in kopitiam hope he din c me....hahaha.....

Benjamin Button : You never know what's coming for you...

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button...

i tot it was a realy nice touching n inspiring movie....of LIFE....

well it abt dis guy borned old but getting younger by da day...born under special circumstances...

born as an old man bt died as a baby....

Nothing is impossible...

You never know what's coming for you...

Just start over again...

it gets me tinking...we should do anyting when we hv da chance...neva let time pass without us knowing it...just do it while we can...

We r meant 2 lose da people we love...otherwise how would we noe tey r important 2 us??????

Be Thankful...Grateful & Appreciate...

wat sau ying ku ku said was al true...realy important 2 b thankful n jz appreciate everyting u hv...n wat others hv given u..dis r tings which i can do....

1. help wit dishes
2. bro's study
3. doggie fifi
4. lower my tone n temper
5.JUST BE GRATEFUL!!!!!!!!

jz nw went yum cha wit yy yl cy jy n yan....at old town kopitiam....kinda jz chatted...den yan told da piao ger...phan joon yee...asked her 4 valentine at citrus....den gave her a bouquet of hand-made flowers...kinda pretty oso...bt she threw it away...hahahahaha....

stil waiting 4 results...kinda no feeling d nw....hvn realy study my tax oso..haizzzz....

Back to MICHELLE!!!!!! jacky again????? exam & prom.....Valentine's Day<3

ya ya ya....after toking 2 vemal dat day...more like shouting actualy...told bt amy n prom n stuff....totaly relief....den next day onwards realy no prob d lar...sure i can cope wit it....den amy told me uncle chong n yip both asked her 2 b partners 4 prom nite....hahahaha...damn funny she of cz duwan both...she gona sit wit me dat nite oso....n we got da top 5 prom king n queen in our hands.....dat stupid emily was like so nt satisfied wit it...wateva larrr..it's nt up 2 her...

ytd yen yen came bac...den went taughe chicken...while eating da chicken leg....i sudenly tot of eating it 2geter wit jacky at tuck kee....realy stupid lar i noe...bt den da heart was like crushing...n jz nw...on9 chatting bt valentine nt going out...he said he broke up wit his gf....seriously yi hei....hw can???? ask him den he said duno hw 2 tel me...den nvm lar....jz i neva tot it would end so soon....haizzz....duno should b hapy or sad....

yilee gona go aus 4 pharmaceutical science....on17th oso....same day as yy....all gone ler....sobzzz...2mr gona go over 2 yy hs i tink...or yum cha....den monday gona b my result day....seriously duno wat 2 expect....gt a bet wit jacky oso....if i fail he wil treat me...if i pas den i hv 2 treat him....i realy wish 2 treat him though....hahahaha....

da 2 cute yeng guys r in my law clas nw....hahaha...chris low n anoter duno wat name oso....hahaha....sometimes can gap abit lar...bt no chance oso lar i tink...jz nw met ah boy n jason n a few more at mcd.....had valentine's dinner wit family at 2 plus 1....realy yummy...i tink i saw da wong jun lai or smtg ldt...da pasar malam guy...

unsocialising???? BLack Day...karaoke...

jian yao n vemal said i'm nt like duwan 2 socialise anymore....i tink it's kinda true oso....realy dun feel like it....esp when amy's around...mayb my jealousy stuff again....haizzzz....selfish me...bt i cant help it....

den 2dy most ppl wear black shirt....symbolising da death of democracy in perak.....hahahaha....well i dun realy hv a stand....duno who's gud or bad oso.....wateva lar....

jun said tey wana fly bac 2 m'sia.....tey cried 4 it so boring n da aunt is horribly stingy n fussy.....haizzz...pity dem...missing home so much....wonder will i be jz ldt....hmmm.....

den went karaoke wit szehow n jacky...kinda hapy...bt damn short da hours..jz 2.5hrs...haizzz...tarak syok lerr....yin jing was surprise i went wit dem....uncle chong called 2 find me again...dis prom ting i realy hope it wil get over soon....

jz back from kl 2dy...sending jian n jun off 2 aus...tears swelling up bt it neva came down...pity looking at her n her family...missing her...den some misunderstanding wit yy...cant realy mk fun of her nwadays....haizzz....well she kinda tk it seriously....realy seriously....even hyin says dat oso...bt other den dat kinda everyting was fine...brandon n kaisyen n 2 other frens went 2 klia oso...cure brandon...hahaha....den did some shopping...used quite a lot of money...bought nail polish....earings...blusher...hp deco 4 jun n jian as farewell present....den food den karaoke rm35..damn it....al2geter bt rm210....4 just 3 days....mahjong was realy fun..i noe hw 2 count da 'fan' nw d....hahaha....k ler..damn tired....hv 2 count da money again...nitezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......

Getting old????? seriously going in2 heavy topics...

ytd nite chatting wit yy...she sudenly tel me dat siew hong khuin n scott lee toking stuff bt her....den jian told me bt it...tey saying she's nt virgin...gave everyting 2 har...desperate 4 sex...sui bian al those stupid shit....total stupid idiotic jerks....hw can tey do such tings....

chatting wit yy toking in2 heavy life stuff...we conclude dat we may b da ones making big deal bt everyting....looking 2 heavily...worrying 2 much...dat i knt deny...cz dats my problem realy...tinking tinking mayb i realy worry 2 much...n care 2 much of wat ppl tink of me...

REMINDER FOR SELF!!!!!!

DO WHAT U TINK IS RIT
DO NOT REGRET 4 WAT IS DONE
DO NOT BOTHER SO MUCH BT WAT PPL TINK BT U
DO ENJOY URSELF
STOP WORRYING!!!!!
BE HAPPY!!!!!

NO MORE EMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yep ald asking y i look so moody recently....amy oso notice....uncle chong kp pestering wats wrong....haizzz....dat morning cried as sau ying ku ku was so angry...feel so bad...bt i wil study hard no matter wat....i hv 2 b independent....den vemal 2dy duno y sudenly look so angry...i din dare 2 tok 2 him oso....yep asked amy wat hapen between me n him...i seriously duno..wat did i do????

Movies....WANA WATCH & LOVES!!!!

DEFINITELY, MAYBE
LOVE ACTUALLY
P.S. I LOVE YOU
BECOMING JANE
ENCHANTED
MADE OF HONOUR
BRIDEWARS
MARGOT AT THE WEDDING
THE OTHER BOLEYN GIRL
CLOSER
FEAST OF LOVE
PRIDE AND PREJUDICE
ROSWELL
OVER HER DEAD BODY
ATONEMENT
MY BLUEBERRY NIGHTS
I COULD NEVER BE YOUR WOMAN
SILK
LOVE AND OTHER DISASTERS
TWILIGHT
MOULIN ROUGE
AUSTRALIA
TITANIC
THE JANE AUSTEN BOOK CLUB

ELIZABETHTOWN
A WALK TO REMEMBER
MUST LOVE DOGS
GOOD LUCK CHUCK
AMERICAN PIE
ONCE
A CINDERELLA STORY
LICENSE TO WED
ROMEO AND JULIET
LITTLE WOMEN
SERENDIPITY
GHOST
SWEET NOVEMBER
EVER AFTER
NOTTING HILL
AMELIE
PRINCESS BRIDE
WALL-E
JUNO
WAY BACK INTO LOVE
THINGS YOU CAN TELL JUST BY LOOKING AT HER
STARDUST

ELLA ENCHANTED

HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE

Moulin Rounge...Love and Other Disasters... Bai Tin Gong...

7th Day of CNY

everyting cramp 2geter 2dy...kenji ask 2 go paul's hs bai nin n get angpao...bt den hv 2 meet at joe's hs...around 1st garden i tink...so damn far den duno hw 2 go oso...in da end din made it...den jian yao ask 2 go c inkheart...cant oso lar...morning went 2 meeting 4 prom nite...wit uncle chong michelle carmen n nicky..den later went 2 yy hs...tey play mahjong mostly...we jz chit chat abit den wanted 2 go 4 dinner....switch so many places...taugeh chicken den breeze den riverbank den kampai at laz...den da bao again in marybrown...in da end went 2 keat hs 2 play games...da 1 wit da clips was so damn funny....da 1st game me n yy was fighting 4 da laz clip....i din noe i could climb dat fast...wakakakaka....nw i oso laughing tinking bt dat scene....

monday college starts again...haizzzz...same as usual...bt damn slpy dat day...went hm den help ku ku go buy fruits....at lok lok ter saw a quite familiar guy...kinda nt realy cute bt somehow attracts me...taking care of his bro n sis....hahaha...gud guy...den slp until 9 smtg...everybody cm 2 hs ald...den bai tin gong..kevin was asking if i wana go over ter oso...den i checked facebook....damn it shit man...al da fotos was like so so shit....den chee seng was like saying he neva tot of me as somebody ldt....shit lar wat da heck....arrrgggh den 2dy giving me al dat again....piss me off realy...nite jz eat den watch anoter funny love movie...LOVE AND OTHER DISASTERS... brittany murphy was in da british kinda movie...den it was like she found her love at laz bt giving herself a chance 2 try...den anoter gay guy da same oso...damn funny parts...

den remind me of anoter movie i watched....MOULIN ROUGE...it was realy a vry nice movie touching too...starring nicole kidman n ewan mcgregor....i kinda realy admire nicole kidman....gona b my female idol....fascinating watching her act....da movie was touching n da songs were realy beautiful....da part wer ewan sang da song...Your Song...was realy vry vry romantic....

tuesday which is 2dy... holiday 4 perak...smtg wit da silver jubilee tingy...den i slp until bt 2pm...although woke up by some sms...mk it 2 da movie...INKHEART...kinda ok bt nt as gud as i expected...vemal din turn up he went selangor...den jian yao asked emily 2 join 4 da spare seat...duno y bt din realy enjoy da movie...den went 2 kenny rogers 2 eat...i wore da black bf t wit black pants....tey say i look like aunty...wat da hell...haizzz...bad mood d....jacket potato meal as usual....den jz walk around...waiting 4 da rain jz went 2 sushi king had da scallops....tj paid 4 it...din realy expect dat though...jz nw went 2 po po's hs 2 eat dinner....yummy choi kiok...heehehe...

anoter ting i sudenly remember...i wrote in fb dat i was stil lost....den uncle chong ask me laz nite jz after i post a while...y did i wrote dat....den jz nw on his way back 2 ipoh from kl...call me jz bcz he's bored...i wonder y he's so interested in my stuff...alwaz trying 2 korek stuff out from me...den he said i was like da toy being pulled here n ter by ppl...bt i cant cut loose from it 4 nw...well kinda true...bt jz i am stil nt used 2 telling ppl 2 many stuff bt myself n wat i tink...den jz in time...he called me nw in msn...wonder wat he ask dis time...

A few songs from american pie which i cant find....

1. Bachelor Number One - "Summertime"

2. Super TransAtlantic - "Super Down"

3. The Loosen Nuts - "Wishen"

den stil da song from Australia....By The Boab Tree by Angela Little.....

Chinese New Year!!!!!

Reunion Nite

had dinner as usual....steamboat....yummy soup...n tomyam oso....yen yen came bac dis yr....bt ung ung stayed back in america wit his gf....quite pretty....big eyes bt looked quite old...older den him i tink....bt tey seem 2 b having fun wit da ku ku over ter....i tink she would hv realy like her....smtg which i'm jealous of....secretly though....hehehe....

1st Day

wk up den GONG XI FA CHAI!!!! n angpaos of cz....at hm gt bt rm340....nt bad lar....almost da same every yr...den din do anyting much dat day...jz watching tv mostly...den decorating my nails....found a new way 2 draw flowers...hehehe..

2nd Day

went 2 por por's hs....getting angpao again...oni rm73.10.....den jz eat n play cards...drinking quite alot realy...around evening went 2 olivenz cafe wit joanne 2 meet mr gan's sons...ah weng da eldest 1...den he gt a fren ah fei...quite cute....my age oso studying biz in utar kampar....den later i join kee jian yy n a new fren from kl called wendee....kinda nice friendly gal oso....tot wana go sincero den had 2 tk 2buckets of tiger 4 rm180...damn den we jz change 2 canopy....had a drink den da bao food den eat at yy hs....den hm again....

3rd Day

went 4 movie..all's well end's well....seriously funny lar da movie...toking bt lou gu por...which i would neva wana b....hahaha....enjoy it though....i belanja lar...den went hm...everybody came over 2 our hs again as usual....i personaly din like it much....tried out my dresses....den kinda jz eat n play n stuff....den i went out around 10smtg....kc came 2 fetch me den went out yum cha....at mp...damn damn noisy...so switch 2 kopitiam....den went hm gamble abit won some money....hehehe...kemas abit den slp lar bt 4smtg i tink....

4th Day

going around visiting houses....abt 10 hs i tink....hyin lwei jun keat jinyi kee meow jian yan kc yy....bt damn fun oso lar....hehehe....2 bad yilee was nt able 2 join us...her grandpa passed away on chor 2....gt bt rm 59.....den went over 2 uncle chong's b'day...ntg much 2 eat actualy..nt dat nice lar...bt den stil ok lar...chating wit racheal....den gt anoter cute guy oso....called ah hei...his fren's younger bro lar...mayb younger den me oso i tink....hahaha....den going bac emily got lost in2 da highway....den without much petrol....realy bad luck den gt blocked by da police....realy deep shit....so i reach bac yy's hs around 12 smtg i tink....uncle chong told me his mum realise dat ryan was in2 me oso....haizz wat da heck...den i was pretty...compliment from his mum oso....got angpao rm5 oso...hahaha....den dat nite we chatted alot....ryan sud call den ask bt everyting..sort of accuse everyting out of him...dun care lar...nt gona unblock da msn i tink....wateva lar...around 4smtg oni slp ler....

5th Day

wk up so damn late....around 3smtg...din realise oso....so jz went hm...dad's car got stuck halfway....water boiling....so in da end ku ku came 2 fetch me bac hm....den yep jian yao n vemal came over 2 pick me up...we went 2 ms jen's hs....gt rm4 angpao...den amy's hs gt rm5....her younger sis pretty lar...tey kp saying she's hot....hahahaha....den amy oso told me dat her sis brought her 2geter 2 sincero on chor 1...den emily wenny wong kar seng jeffrey was all over ter...wateva ler....den emily ask y din ask me 2 go oso....eat tandoori at nasmir....so called da naan wit da red chicken...damn big lar dish...cost rm7 wit da drink...den went bac 2 my hs....visit n tour abit...den went out 2 houz....i wear da hot low cut spaghetti...hahaha...surprising i tink...bt seriously nt comfortable at al....i tink hardly i wil wear dat again....mayb jz at nite...n safe places....realy nice lar music over ter...jzz dat ter's al aunty n uncle ler...hv 2 tk 3 buckets....spend rm56....haizzz...bt enjoy lar realy....gt kinda high d...cant walk straight....damn it....vemal oso high d lar...start crapping....we left aounrd 12smtg....den vemal went 2 babyface....yep hv 2 go hm...so me n jian yao went bac 2 nasmir 2 drink...den he called emily...she was wit her fren from yan wen's open hs...so we join her n her fren ken from kl....drink at abc again...i tink i saw vinod....den jz chat n chat...later jian yao was hungry so went 2 mcd....jz eat da fries...den chating again...reach hm around 4smtg....hahaha...my latest record in ipoh currently...

6th Day

da most boring day of dis whole holiday....actualy jian dem went 2 dai shu guok 2 eat lunch...bt den i wk up late...so din join...tot wana go parade wit dem...bt in da end 2 late d...tot can wear my boyfren t dis time....in da end went 2 da bao kfc n tung fen hai jz nw...spend around rm76 4 everyting....damn my 1st time oso...bt neva mind lar...jz eat oni wert...guess who i met in kfc...mr mok....he was actualy planing 2 ask me 2 borrow f5 book 2 him....so called update he say...duno wats behind dat...hahaha....so gud cant mk up da time...hahaha...thank god...den afternoon watch american pie....seriously damn funny lar...hahahaha...love it....dat day watch titanic oso sudenly so damn touching man....stil love da movie....rose n jack....well...2mr gona hv meeting again...duno wat 2 tok abt...n kenji said going 2 paul's hs 4 angpau n gathering stuff....stil tinking hw 2 go...haizzz...c ler hw...sandy din reply me oso...feeling bad 2 trouble her....duno wat tey tink abt me oso....sobzzzz....

Chong Kbox...David's B'day...Jian Jun going off 2mr!!!!!

uncle chong sudenly ask go kbox...using his b'day privilege....50% on rm128 room....hahaha....so jz went lar....sing until bt 2am...den reach hm bt 2smtg...mum hung up my phone....damn no mood d....den he kp scolding me 4 nt telling him mum called....hahaha....bt nex day ntg oso lar....

den david's b'day...ryan was ter...bt stil ok lar at da party....quite having fun actualy...taking fotos...den having orange vodka...yummy....den beer...lots of fruits n snacks....totaly a vry large room....serene's 3 bros were ter...den angelia low...kinda nice oso lar her....cheeliyee was ter oso...surprising 2 c her....den ken seng brought emily...den da confessing...totaly drunk...vomit twice.....yucks....sang quite alot...den ter's dis guy called ron i tink...nt bad his singing...den when at laz he ask 2 sing a song 2geter....stupid shit da screen said thank you n pls come again!!!! wat da heck lar seriously....ish ish ish...bt nvm lar...da guy's nt dat cute...mayb jz abit lar...hehehe....

den uncle chong wana celeb his b'day nxt thurs....he's kinda interested in amy...wakakaka....surprising....he tot she broke up d....bt kinda weird when i heard it....mayb jealous dat she gt smbody...haizzz..nt dat i dun hv...bt stil da feeling....bad news 4 him lar....haizzz....bt tinking tinking dis few days...i realy hope she can b more independent n nt jz hanging around n 4lowing me...sometimes she do surprise me by daring 2 voice out n ask ppl stuff.....bt sometimes she realy relies alot alot....well....she is gud fren stil.....den jz nw oni jian nudge me....i tot she going off after cny....den nw oni i noe tey going off 2 kl 2mr....wat da shit larr....haizzz..2mr yum cha laz time b4 tey go off....n jz nw chat abit wit jacky...such a long time since we chatted....toking bt da color lens again...den half way his msn off d....stil frens...n glad 2 be.....hehehehe....

feeling quite alot of stuff 2 do recently....bz bz bz....alot of homework....chores....prom work...club work...entertainment.....shopping....lots n lots....n i tink tey wil stil b 4lowing me....

LOST IN TIME..................................

Jusco Sushi King & Parade KBox...

eat until damn full lar 2dy....met jacky wit szehow again at da coffee shop....den duno wat 2 eat..at laz me n amy went 2 sushi king in jusco....ate about rm20....both of us shared....luv da scallop alot alot....hahaha....sort of beh song wit da prom stuff lar stil...den told abit bt it 2 siti lar....stil nd time lar....haizzzz......

den jz nw went 2 sing k at parade kbox...damn syok lar...gt beer somemore...totaly crazy towards da end....screaming n making weird noise n al....hahahaha...bt damn fun....nw da hair smell like shit....yuck yuck....

worst mood ever....crumpled...

haizzzz....i stil cant get over things which i tot i could....

while yum cha at coffee shop...jacky pas by...din realy look....den on da way up da staircase...met n he sort of wey ldt...using his fail....den jz duno wat kinda feeling i hv....

den vemal took my purse...sort of get on my nerves again....

yy dem al actualy came in2 da coll...den it was like whole gang of dem jz waiting 4 me...realy felt wierd....duno lar...jz nt comfortable at al....i tink tey sense it oso....knew i din like da idea at al....yan was like no prob as usual....bt 4 me...haizz i duno lar....

uncle chong wont let me go unless vemal came bac....den he sort of nt exactly scold..bt i noe he din like it....nt satisfied at al...den vemal duno went wer....later he was looking 4 change again....haizzz....wat da hell....totaly mood off....jian dem of cz realise as usual....din eat my lunch oso...jz drank soya bean...feel like kinda wana puke...

went bac coll...totaly sour face...everybody noticed i tink...asking wats wrong....even tot i cried...i seriously feel like it....such a long time since....den i cried after coming hm...jz dun feel like doing anyting else...went 2 slp wit da music....uncle chong called 2 ask wat hapen again..dis time duno wat da hell 2 tell oso....in da end din say anyting...yin yep oso sms over 2 ask....jz nw vemal sort of asked....haizzzz.....wateva lar....stil nt realy in a gud mood.....

stil i duno y da hell happen...sad??? guilt??? jealous??? awkward??? confused???
mayb just everyting................

Hectic Lifestyle....

2dy full day clas lar almost....damn bored during da sd oso....haizzzz....den jz nw went 2 keat hs...sing abit den dong gu teng eat again....damn hungry oso....nick jz told me dat ryan dulan jung yeow 2dy...cz he fetch me hm ytd...damn idiotic....realy stupid shit....arrrrggggghhhh.....jz gona go prom as a single!!!! gud idea....stupid ryan say gt a few candidate d....idiot lar him....c who he gona get at laz....sure nobody....wakakakaka....evilnya.....

Bedtime Stories...

decided 2 resign d lar....damn fan 2 work....so 2mr gona tel alice....den jz nw went 2 get my dress....wakakaka....damn nice lar....luv it realy....perfect 4 my prom....den c doc d he gave some kinda foundation ting he say...bt i dun tink it wil b of any much gud use....bedtime stories...starring adam sandler.....nice movie...watched wit uncle chong ryan yip n his gal.....da guinea pig....BUGSY....damn damn cute...da eyes round like pingpong balls....hahaha....wenny wong actualy join my clas 2dy....den carmen oso came...din tk f5....so gona b da same again....

den hyin jz nw told us dat kc went 2 subang wit a cake 4 kee....den burn his fingers lighting up da candle....damn gandong lar i tink....hahahaha....bt stil stupid idiot....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! KL trip....

well kinda 1st day 29th was in ikea...bought da organiser n stufff...nw ald in my cupboard...den da book rack mayb stil gona wait.... ate at TGI Friday's wit family...yummy...

den 30th was when i move over 2 jun's apartment at millenium square....kinda nice place...in pj...seksyen 14...near murni oso...i tink i can remember wer is it lar nw...A-07-3A, millenium place apartment, dataran milleniumpj,98,jalan 14/1, 46100, pj, selangor....dats his add...downstairs ter's piccadilly....food is nice...den da italian n thai restaurant is oso nt bad...da tom yam nt dat spicy...green curry was real gud...jz slp da whole day...

31st was new yr eve...wk up quite late den head over 2 the curve....den dusit called when i was in marche...bt rm 21....calamari fried...yummy....nx time gona try da saute mushroom....celeb jun's b'day...he lost his wallet n cash....thank god he kp his ic card n stuff....den din meet up wit him oso...da food was al so tempting...kelvin brandon kai syen n his gf joined us...chee yong jz came in say hi den went off....he's quite gud looking actualy....hehehe...den we jz walk around abit...

countdown we sort of separated....when we go thru da walkway street....totaly covered by da snow spray as we move along....kena da head n stuff all....lots of ppl....den da fireworks were fantastic...i recorded n tk some foto....damn nice...n realy hapy looking at it...

den we join dem n went 4 movie....AUSTRALIA....it was a realy romantic touching movie...damn nice...lady ashley....drover n nullah....da laz song by angela little...BY THE BOAB TREE...

Sing and I will hear you
No matter where you are
A song to light the darkest night
And guide me from afar

And I will never be alone
Now I know you're somewhere
You're everywhere to me
You're the colour in the sky
A reason to believe
And when the rain falls down
You tell a story
And I will hear you
Always near you
By the boab tree

Lay your arms around me
Like the falling rain
Let the feeling drown me
And life begins again

And I will never be afraid
Now I know you're somewhere
You're everywhere to me
The warming of the sun upon
The earth beneath my feet
And when the rain falls down
You tell a story
And I will hear you
Always near you
By the boab tree

Oh you are somewhere
You're everywhere to me
You're the colour in the sky
And you're the earth beneath my feet
And when the rain falls down
You tell a story
And I will hear you
Always near you
By the boab tree

gona download it...n my heels totaly killing me....crush it...den hyin n khidir got caught by da muslim...she was lying on his lap...haizzz....total bad luck....den ah wei took da wrong way n went 2 kl on da way bac...kee was nt cooperating...beh song d...den ah wei n dem al were vry angry...den chatted until quite late dat nite i tink....

new yr 1-1-2009....i'm 19 seriously....haizzzz....y so damn fas....getting old n stil single....sobzzzz....SAD....we slp until bt 4pm i tink...den went 2 sunway pyramid....ate at manhattan bt rm 28 oso....clubbing day...kinda bored actualy....used rm35....open a bottle 4gt wat name d...no cute guys...jz at da starting some indian guy called sukdesh i tink...came n ask 4 a dance...ask if he can hold me...den ask if i wana mk out...haizzz...totaly drunk dude...den his fren looking around...said sory oso...hahaha....grab my waist...dancing face 2 face damn close...den others oso ntg much...jz dancing along...i wear pumps...so can dance longer...kee complaining bt her leg again...

den 2nd jan...went 2 mid valley....kinda shop around...din get much stuff...jz da nichii dress n converse handbag...we ate at da food court....dat nite totaly kp ngam kc oni...he gt kee da purple mng dress....shu eumura eyeliner....n da pair of earrings...we bought da eyeliner brush 4 her....he is realy a totaly dumb guy....stupid until it's undescribable....haizzz...wateva larr as he wish....den keat n lee went bac 2dy...

3rd jan sat...went 2 1 utama....den uncle chong ryan n yip came....looking 4 house...den went 2 dragon-i....ate da siew long bao...quite nice....jz chat abit....stupid ryan like shit...den uncle chong as me go 2 prom as his partner...haiyerr i jz said wana go as a single as i am....den date mayb hv 2 change cz da mian cant mk it...haizz....stupid lar...hopefully no prob...bought da green pants at pull n bear...den da boyfren t wit nice black n white checkers....hahaha...gt pak pak's shirt from hush puppies oso...den tot wana go murni bt closed...so went 2 yippie cup...bubble tea...kelvin kai syen n brandon came oso....den kelvin brought a gal he was trying 2 hook up wit....yee wen i tink....1 yr younger bt alot more matured den us....talkative....nice pretty gal...den jz went hm wana wait 4 kee 2 slp den surprise her....alas she drank milk tea cant slp...we waited until bt 3 smtg am....haizzz...den oni she slp....surprise wit da secret recipe cake...den gave her da presents...she was so damn hapy....den we continue watching step up 2...chatted a while in da room....looking 4 bf 4 me...hahaha....love topic....

ate da mee shua kinda nice oso realy...wit oysters...

dis morn jz wk up pack...den off rushing n running 2 kl central...i tink i saw da indian guy's fren on da lrt...hahaha...embarassing....hehehehe...den normal day..clean up my room abit...2mr gona start coll again....mayb gona go off in june...mayb mayb.....hmmmm......download quite some songs oso....later ni transfer....nw gona slp....