stupid lan again...n duno y feel one kind tinking of ryan n jacky...urrgghh...

lan ppl came 2dy....even thou i nt working..bt stil hv 2 standby over ter...haizzz...until damn hungry...at laz went 2 eat wit uncle chong dem...at da coffee shop....den jz work again..as usual...ntg much lar...den jacky sud came oso...n ask wer is uncle chong...den ask hv i eaten ant....den jz nw chanele send me da fotos....haizzz....most of dem gt ryan inside....arrgh...bt den when i saw jacky's foto oso...i feel realy one kind....cant explain wats dat.....haizzzz....jz so b it lar....he's nt dat gud of a guy either act...jz crush on him....n den gt t9 2dy....55.5 marks oni...haizzz...hv 2 do more ques ler...den 2dy flu somemore...damn headache d....ryan kp asking go yum cha wit chanele yuki elaine dem around 9pm...bt den din feel like going lar....n tey made an mtv wit chanele dumping ryan 4 ken seng....n ryan was smoking inside ter...i tink he sked of letting me c him smoking oso....so wat...no use oso....den jz enjoying my blog n pet society...den editing da fotos...stupid jacky sure nx time i nt gona nudge him unless he do so...if nt he wil hv no response at al...n jz wat wat wat...arrrgh...ok nw gona upload da fotos n tag....

shoPping in kl!!!! yupz yupz...n back 2 ipoh damn sick....

cutie...aiya..forgot wats her name d...hahaha....

fishy jelly

dat morn join mum n dem....jz change n went 2 da new hs....bt act i prefer marshall's hs more....realy simple n nice...comfortable...n love da book shelf....saw one realy nice red bookshelf worth rm185 in ikea n anoter flower light...damn cute....n da pillow love one was rm29....hahaha....gona buy da shelf nx time going kl i tink...yahoo!!!! hahaha....den gona arrange my room again...den jz enjoy da nite....nx day went shopping...hahaha...yeap gt 5 dress n tops....wakakaka....yahoo....den laz day went ikea lar...gt my silver shoe at laz...hehehe....

our delicious dinner in restoran shi hao....in times square....

den i rem one nite i dreamt abt jacky oso...duno wat..bt smtg like a party....alot alto of ppl were ter....mum n dad was ter too...den we were sort of hugging....den sud some young ppl having fun jumping down from da roof.....such disturbing scenes.....

den 2dy seriously coughing like mad.....my god realy....den jz go hm n slp...den com bac 4 review again.....slping halfway....i dreamt abt jacky again....dis time i went 2 his apartment i tink...2 get smtg bt i dun rem wat lar....den i was like taking smtg while sitting on da bed...he jz came from behind n i was leaning on him....he was like scratching smtg....den i sud gt so warm n slpy n drowsy....totaly cant even move....he was asking is dis comfortable...my god...it was like slping in heaven...hahaha....den suddenly he duno went wer...after saying smtg bt his aunty coming or wat...den he went out n his family came in....his father look so fierce n den his mum said jacky hv 2 study...nt gona waste time on dis...den i explain dat we jz frens....i'm stil studying oso....den i tink i wk up d....hahaha...bt i luv da part wer i slp on him...totaly warm n melting.....hahaha...bt stil it's jz a dream.....

n my eom....t6 gt 87....t7 gt 31....t9 duno yet....t10 gt 51....hahaha....jz t7 lar nw...others i tink can pass lar act...jz dat hoping 4 higher marks mayb....t6 can lar....den 2mr gona review again t9 n t7.....lan ppl coming oso....den siti having fever zee say....2dy oni like so close wit sukvin again...duno wats up lar wit dem.....jz gona concentrate on my exam nw....den ytd i was so damn high...kp on laughin n laughing like hell oni...den 2dy sasi's b'day...he n vemal n peh went 2 drink....ah peh ended up like hellboy...totaly red....

den jacky 2dy when i went hm he came....den when i came bac he went hm....4 da plumber he said....den jz nw chatted lar like normal....jz as i tot....he say ugly wit specs...stupid him....

Murni & Ampang Lookout Point!!! N suddenly bad mood....

wait until damn long at laz get 2 go 2 murni 4 dinner in ss2...bt more like supper....wait until bt 11 smtg oni gt 2 eat....b4 dat went 2 fetch khidir's fren Aftar or smmtg ldt....indian guy..kinda nice funny guy lar..den da murni has no menu...kinda have any kind of food u wan....b it chinese indian mamak malay or even western food....we had da cheese naan...mee raja tomyam...i drank da kiwi ice blended....inside ter's some watermelon too...kinda nice....den ah tai 4lowed too...she drank da pink panther which is act watermelon mix pineapple....kinda wierd taste 4 me....hahaha...it was jz a smal stall....bt den da chairs n tables were like da whole street totaly...filled wit ppl of al kinds.....

after dat we went 2 da ampang look out point...realy a romantic kl nite view....ter is a lower part which u can oni park ur car n stand by da road n enjoy da view....den anoter part is higher up where ter's car park...den u hv 2 walk rit up da beautiful garden feel staircase....up 2 da gasoline cafe n den anoter one called duno wat leaf tingy cafe....bt den gasoline was closed....so we had 2 sit at da other cafe....da higher place was act nicer....sit at side table was best of all.....den with da light music on....kinda listening 2 da song...from SHE wo ai ni....realy romantic.....den hyin said dis is wer she n khidir started....ah tai told us her n her bf started act from a sunrise in penang....damn damn romantic lar......hahahaha....waiting 4 my turn though....haizzzz....

bt den nw bac 2 hm d....damn geram duno y suddenly....esp toking 2 kc n jun...damn damn gik....den da ryan oso....duno y sud so gik...mayb cz period or wat oso i duno lar.....haizzz....jz feel like scolding n hitting somebody....2 bad nobody 4 me 2 do so.....haizzzz...den khidir n hyin stil in side da room....kinda wierd 2 go in n slp nw....haizzz...jian n jun stil studying den nt slping....kc was listening 2 music n jz went 2 slp after kicking in2 my chair as his goal....which ended up being scolded by me....hahahaha......damn damn funny....totaly sked d lar him....seriously duno y he's here.....came al da way...bt den din 4low us much anywer...clubing oso forced 2 go....den ampang oso duwan 2 4low....haizzz...crazy dude....kp singing 2 himself oni....haizzzz..no eye c d....

Euphoria!!!!!!!!! Ministry of Sound!!!!!

damn damn damn syok n fun!!!!!! 2 bad hyin din get 2 go in....tey checked our ic..den jian n yun dem ask ppl 2 help oso knt...so jz went away wit khidir...hyin act went 2 queue at anoter entrance bt den when da ppl ask 4 b'day..she sort of hesitate so tey knew it's nt her ic she's using...den kp on dancing like crazy...sexysexy...ahahaha...wear bobos top at laz....it bcm my dress....damn short....bt ntg lar 4 clubing..hahaha...

den was da dancing part....at 1st jz gals...den some guys came by oso...jz dancing behind..some tried 2 put da arms around my waist....bt mostly t handsome oso....bt den when we went out 2 rest abit at da staircase...ter's dis cute guy....nick tey say from taylors oso....sam engineering....he was sort of standing ter oso...looking looking...den yun's fren having b'day party ter in da vip room..he gt so damn drunk until seriously knocked out....he vomited on da sofa oso i tink..den his frens hv 2 cary him out....his leg was like can even move....he was like carried in da form of superman....hahahaha....den after dat we went in 2 dance again....oni me wei jinyi n yilee....jian n kc were outside...damn tired....den we went in...da nick he was wearing an oreef shirt i tink....so sort of known him as reef....den he was dancning ter oso..den gt behind me n started dancing 2geter....damn funny lar him...wana grab my waist bt dun realy dare 2 ldt...den dancing n clapping hands sud ldt...wierd lar kinda....hahaha...bt den he's stil cute....den some time after dat he went away duno wer d....sobz.....nick nick....

saw a group of guys circling da dance floor oso...ter was dis realy damn cute guy...i tink da bez in da club laz nite....bt din realy dance much....jz stand ter....at laz when we were dancning...few of his frens sort of took turn 2 dance behind us....ter was dis 1 damn close behind until i can even feel his damn dick...rising somemore i tink....den jinyi kp on helping us turning us around.....hahahaha...damn funny...bt da cute guy jz stand ter oni....din even come over 2 dance...seriously if he was 2 dance wit me i realy dun mind at al....hahahahaha....

da club closed at 3am so we went 2 yum cha...realy damn thirsty...we got a free drink 4 ladies...i tink da 2nd 1 was vodka lime....quite nice....den jz went hm n chat chat al da while....toking bt chee yong n kee.....den told my story...damn damn complicated...hahahaha....den jz random chat n al....peng oso mentioned....i din no he was wit his bf 4 10 mths d....so damn long jor...den slp at bt 8.30am....hahahaha...jinyi n yilee miss their bus oso..hv 2 gt taxi n join her mum...den we wk up at abt 2.30pm ldt...went 2 sunway pyramid bbq plaza 2 eat..it's act da thai style sort of steamboat tingy....damn damn full.den gt belanja from kee jian n jun....hehehhe...thankz thankz realy....dat would b act rm15.....den came hm jz tey al went slping...until nw act....den oh ya i got period damn it..stress lar mayb realy....

jz nw chating wit jacky again....on da webcam show me dot dot oso...hahaha...den he gt his leg injured on wed...thurs went 2 c doc...pity him....huge leg wit bandage....hahahaha....kena during futsal......den nw bac in langkap d....he nt sure whether going kl ant oso dis yr....duno gona drive ant oso.....c ler.....nt gona tink so much d lar.....ter's so much more chances 4 me out ter....hahaha...jz gona continue waiting 4 my rit guy...others nw jz b frens n c hw it goes.....wink wink....

going kl!!!!!!!

2dy's t10 nt bad lar act....stil considered done....jz some realy 4gt wat da hell lar...hahaha...den ntg 2 do...jz hang out a while in da lib....zainal abidin was crazy scolding 4 id again....haizzzz....until everyone oso ng song d....esp chanele i tink kp on scolding him like shit....siti n sukvin was kinda gud again...bt nt 4 me...nvm nvm....ntg much 2 me...den after dat jz went hm...den gt my atm card at lazz....adult book stil gota change later....den took out rm300 4 kl trip....den pack n try da outfits....at laz jz gona wear bac da same dress lar....kuku made potato mash mushroom soup n pork chop again....nice nice n healthy kinda....hahaha....realy eat alot of potato recently....fattening....2mr gona go kl!!!! yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Exam & Love stress....haizzz....

exam larrr eom...haizzz...3 down 1 more 2 go...t6 n t9 stil ok lar....bt den t7 is like shit....total shit..i tink 2mr t10 oso wil b anoter piece of shit....den anoter ting is....ryan....jz nw went pasar malam wit him...den gone gila on da way bac...sort of like screaming d...den he toking bt food chain....ryan like mich...mich like jacky...jacky like yan...yan like kevin...kevin stil like ex....haizzz..stupid chain.....no turn back point....gila gila...sort of same situation jz dat he dun hv anybody behind him....da worst lar means....n den yan jacky even chanele oso noe bt dis...am i realy dat obvious???? mayb so....cz da look i giving him...haizzz...realy hv 2 stop it lar....if nt gona scare him i tink....den ytd toking 2 him chating stil ok lar...like normal..bt when he c me in person...like so sked...haizzz...dun care lar so much....den ryan toking toking den sud cried...oh my god...i realy din noe wat 2 do...he kp asking me 2 4gt bt jacky 1st...haizz...bt i stil hoping i tink....wat 2 do...let time goes lar...let it flow....nw jz gona fin exam 1st...den go kl fun fun fun!!!!!

P.S. den nw rem d da stapler n lollipop story....act i sitting at da counter working....den sud he asking bt jacky...sms on da hp somemore....den stil i din answer him lar....den ter's a stapler n lollipop on da counter...he said....ter's a lollipop alwaz waiting 4 me 2 eat....no matter i throw it in da dustbin or werever...it wil stil come bac n wait....bt den da stapler....ter's no bullets inside...no matter hw much i wana use it....it cant b used...dats hw he described it...bt den i was stil playing wit da stapler....n duwan 2 eat da lollipop.....hehehe....n dis r some of my love stapler bullets....

stupid crazy vemal

monday morn....he suddenly sms me saying bt wat i sory 4 loving me...den nt gona tink 2 much d....n dat HIS HEART IS NOT A TOY!!!!! wat da heck is dat????? stupid shit...den cc later abel told me dat act sunday tey talk bt dis....he told him dat i said no chance d lar...haizzz...mayb dats y he send me dat sms...den when i reply dat i neva treat his heart like a toy....he said i din realise oso....n smtg abt dis biggest blow...den congratulations....arrrrgh he's like copying wat i said 2 him....ish ish stupid dumb him....go n die larrr.....

Vemal's confession...again...A MESSAGE FROM MY HEART !!!

Love 2 me was just a word, which I never really bothered about until i meat u, someone who gave da word a meaning. To have known you and to have loved you has been the most beautiful dream; I can only hope that I never wake up. I seriously cannot put into words hw u make me feel, all I noe is that It was a real wonderful feeling… a day spent with u,even for a moment can really make my day…at the beginning I never really knew what was going on…becoz I was unable 2 describe the feeling, it was all new 2 me….maybe that’s just love, it just happens without condition..

I would like 2 ask u a question, can u tell me the difference between love and like? Well Michelle, in my experience, after u came into my life, I was able 2 differentiate the words, when there is a reason why u have a little something for that someone.it is not called love it is called like..becoz in love there are just no reasons..it just happens…and when it does…the sky is da limit..2 tell u frankly I saw what was inside u, I saw your inner beauty, I was so vulnerable, that I just fell for u…!! My love for u can’t be expressed by mere words…You know you love someone when you cannot put into words how they make you feel.

a Wiseman once told me that only fool’s rush, and maybe I was 1… but I could not help myself, I loved you so much that I was afraid I will lose u and I confessed my hearts feelings....but 2 my fate the tables turned… Now that I have loved so purely and deeply, I have realized how lonely I really was. I always asked my self Why is it easy to fall in love and yet so hard to be loved back? Why should I feel such if destiny permits me not? Why do I have to fall if it's you I can’t have? Why is there a "you" in "me"but never a "me" in "you”? Loving you was easy, losing you was hard. Loving you is still easy, but knowing you will never be mine, is the hardest of it all.
when I’m in love, another girl, no matter even if she’s Jessica alba, will be only a passing shadow 2 the eyes, becoz 2 me u are everything…even up 2 this very day…! Michelle 2 my eye, there’s never a thing which can be compared 2 u, as I said before u will only know hw special you are 2 me if u are able 2 c ureself in my eyes.

2 tell u the truth, even after u told me 2 move on, what made me go on was merely because I never gave up on u…im telling u now….even up 2 today….i knew what I felt in me was real and I noe it was pure…seriously..im being open, there was never lust in my love at all, and its coming from my heart…I was just going with the flow…and just let time decide…but 1 thing is for sure, my possessiveness for u grew…I just could not control myself. Through out, we went through a lot of bitter, sweet. But my love only grew for u…!! my fren’s told me 2 just give it about 2 months+, and I will get over it….but the fact is until 2 day I can never ever forget u….!! I just which da 22nd of august 2008 never existed….haizzz..recently there were some complications along the way… and I went down falling into hell..it was 2 painfull for me even 2 handle…and that was the period which I laid low for a while. But even after that…my love for u has never changed…I noe I cannot make u love me, maybe god was nt fair 2 me, that’s all..its like I have no license 2 show u hw much I care and 2 show u what I feel for u…it really hurts..!!

I started listening 2 a lot of love songs, because it gave meaning 2 my love and a place where I can surrender my heart 2…If a day goes by that I don't say I love you, always know that I do. I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi or even smile at me because I know, even if it’s just for a second, that I've crossed your mind. If I count how many times you've crossed my mind in my entire life, I’d be lying if I said it was too many because you only crossed my mind once, why? Because You never left ... Michelle always remember this When i tell you I love you, I don’t say it out of a habit or to start a conversation, I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me…..

Well michelle, I just felt like sharing this out with you…It was all trapped in me and I just wanted it all 2 come out.. if I would hv said anything wrong then do forgive me…just noe that u will always be special 2 me..!! vemal

TJ's b'day...karaoke...confession email...abel's talk....

lunch jz went 2 MY POINT 4 jian yao's b'day...sort of mostly gals...vemal...yuk ming...carmen...lulu.....kiran...emily...sukvin...vivian...hui yi...yoke ching...dats bt it i tink....n me of cz...den met hyin n khidir ter oso...laz lunch in ipoh 4 mr carrot juice....hahaha...den went bac jz wait 4 ryan dem 2 come fetch me...vemal sasi kokseng jian yao dem went drinking...realy thani...mid day afternoon..gila lar...orange vodka....duno y suddenly oso....

den karaoke...sing until gila realy...me jacky ryan n chanele....chanele sang more of cantonese songs...den kp on smoking bt 4 i tink...den sort of got emo lar me...listening jacky singing love songs..bt tinking his heart has oni yan....haizzz...wat 2 do..jz hv 2 let go of it...den long time neva chat wit him oso....duno wer he went....should hv went bac 2 langkap d i tink....gila abit d oso lar...den ryan said he noe who's in my heart...den i ased he said jacky...he guessed it ald bt nw totaly confirmed..he kp singing da songs inside al gt meaning 4 me...haizzz...wat am i 2 do lar...den jz went dinner at UNIQUE SEAFOOD RESTAURANT as farewell 4 winnie...she going 2 work in kl i tink...anoter 1 gone jz ldt...

n 2dy ryan ask 2 go lunch n diner oso...bt in da end i din go lar both...jz dun feel like it...n gt my reasons nt 2 go oso....hahaha....after dat 2dy bought alot of stuff....2 skirts...luv dem...3 pants....n 1 shirt....hahahaha...later ni gona post da fotos....can take dem 2 kl n wear lar nw....hahahaha...syok!!!!

den sud got vemal's msg....oh ya...1dy's mcflurry was from vemal...act i sort of guess it ald....hardly seems 2 b vinita sud buying me food....as i was correct in da end....haizzz....den he asked me 2 check my mail....den giv him feedback...i hv ald seen it....y nt i jz post it here....wait ar...later....haizzz...wat kinda feedbac he expect from me larrr......

jz chatted wit abel oso....he asked bt vemal...den ask bt who's my crush nw....as in i say jacky lar of cz...den he asked izit i stil gt smtg 4 him....hahah....damn da honesty....den jz say mayb bit bit nt much oso lar...den he said...he gt feelings 4 mei theng b4 dis....n he made some move oso....she oso gt smtg 4 him...bt den hw nt sure of his feelings....mayb 4 pj n fang ying oso...so in da end jz let it go....den later oni joash came by...dats bt it larr 4 nw...gona chat mayb again 2mr in da lib...hahaha....

Chocs...sweet....Canopy Opening!!!

vemal asked siti 2 pas me da chocs...ferrero roche...big box....den anoter belgian choc....godiva platinum collection....realy nice...i dun tink it's cheap oso....

canopy opening....at 1st realy din wana go...recently kp tinking bt jacky...den vemal...den ryan...troubling toughts seriously....den jacky was working 4 digi...so when he say nt going...i din feel like going oso....later he say going n ask if i wana go...den ryan fetch us both....after dat eric n ken seng was ter....jz drinking....heineken....tey paid of cz...i was getting bit drunk...kp laughing....tey al shaking da beer until everyting came out...den at laz knt tahan d....total emo....went out n sat down...ryan n jacky duno went wer oso....den ryan came over n sit down...ask am i sked of him....duno wat 2 asnwer....den say sometimes i tink...he said nw jz being frens....dun b so cold 2 him...tok tok bit den he left n jacky came....asked da ques at lazz...he stil like yan ant...he said he cant do anyting since she gt anoter person in mind...den yes he said of cz stil having her in mind....den dats enuf 4 me d....can realy let go when i confirmed dis....act i noe it deep in my heart...al along...jz dat i try nt 2 admit n hope dat he act had feelings 4 me...bt actual fact is dat i was trying 2 trick myself in bliving it....haizzzz....so nw jz gona let go...everyting....damn spinning da head...when i sms jacky saying he's a nice guy....he says i dun even noe him well...true oso...hw long hv i known him....2 judge him....den jz so b it....den ryan jz gona b normal frens wit him....try nt 2 b so mean....chris oso...pity him sometimes...haizzz....jz hoping n trying nt 2 do wat i am sked of tings ppl wil do 2 me.....

ryan created anoter verse 4 me....

P&C....i guessed as Paranoid & Crazy....den he said Pretty & Clever....in da end...

PRETTY BUT PARANOID....CLEVER BUT CRAZY....!!!!

true oso i can say...hahaha....

den jz nw went out movie Madagascar 2 escape to africa....nice cute funny movie.....hahahaha....had lots of laugh....den went 2 eat behind jusco....fok sing ter....use alot of money paying dis n dat....haizzz...wat 2 do....LIFE GOES ON.....

6 B'day Celebration!!!! haha...XD

hahaha...seriously.....

1st Indulgence with Ryan
2nd Canopy with Ryan Jacky Chanele n others
3rd Moven peak with CAT ACCAs
4th Breeze Cafe with Ipoh peeps
5th Rum Jungle with Ipoh peeps again
6th Kizuna with dearest family

hahaha....realy enjoyed dis yr's b'day....totaly super duper 18th burfday!!!!! dis morn as usual went 4 work...kinda quiet 2dy...den abel sud asked wat i tink bt kaho...den saying he's worth considering..yeng oso...hahaha...den i mention da oni prob wit him is smoking....when kaho came bc from smoking he actualy repeated everyting 2 him....hahahaha....den damn it cough until like crazy....den kaho n abel going lunch....gave me hacks on da way....hehehe....should b listening 2 me cough until gila....after dat went halo cafe 4 meeting....usual tings again...punctual...chose songs...gt 2 noe more frens....den siti sud sms saying she bought me present d....hahaha...wonder wats dat....after dat jz went hm....yan was having headache so din go 4 work oso....jz called zuki 2 tel him...den later KIZUNA....hehehe....wore da new dress....gift from eric....hahaha....nice food lar...yummy....totaly full...kp on taking fotos....hahaha...den da yee sue was ter oso..kp looking at me...bt din smile wit her....duno jz dun feel like it....den when we went bac i tink she purposely told her family n said it loud 4 me 2 hear...da gal from my coll oso....den came hm...told mum al bt everybody...ryan...vemal...n jacky....she guessed dat i like jacky oso...hahaha...realy mummy....den jz check da mms he sent dat day...realy damn cute....da cat singing b'day song....hahahaha...luv it totaly....in my heart da cutest wish realy which i wont 4get....hehehe....n i rem i overheard jacky saying smtg bt da other 1 more abit....den ryan saying dat means gt lar....mayb would b like yan more abit...bt on me oso gt....dats wat i tinking...might b anoter stuff....jz let it b lar nw...dun care so much d....bt luv da bear though....hahaha...keep on taking fotosss...later gona gather al n ad 2geter....hehehe....