alot alot lately....family is nt going on 2 well.....ku ku as usual talking stuff n all...i jz hv 2 get it in n stuck wit it....ntg i cn do 4 nw....
wai kit stil trying 2 pay 4 everyting n fetching me...kenny dun wana lose a fren bcz of me....haizzz...sad again...
study is like stuck or wateva...i realy duno....sked oso...bt stil....
WAT DA HECK AM I DOING????
so long since i've cried...relieved 2 cry 2dy actualy....feel alot beta after crying...
JUST HAVE TO GONE ON LIVING...
Saturday, May 16, 2009
The End
after da talk all...we decided being hapy in between....bt den hapy moments doesn't last long...it's time 4 da flower 2 die...mayb it wil realy b beta dis way....i cried n cried jz nw....cant stop....esp after listening 2 da song SOMETIMES LOVE JUST AIN'T ENOUGH...haizzz....dats wat i was trying2 say....damn hurt ler wat he said 2dy....realy heavy words....mayb he feel beta dat way....easier 2 let go...
everyting started from his jealousy again....he saw da foto of me n jason dancing in houz....den adding on mike stuff....yy dem were actualy playing a joke in my blog's chat box....den he blived it n gone damn sad....tot i had a bf....haizzz...den plus dat day gerard playing wit me....i was actualy feeling quite uneasy of him doing dat....sort of tickling my back...near my bra strip behind....den vemal was so damn angry...asking what da fuck are u doing....haizzz...if he stayed so much jz a litle bit longer...he would hv jz punched him in da face....
of cz as usual...he ignored me dat few days...i was so fed up i din even wana ask him wat was his prob....i knew smtg was wrong d....den we talked again...bt dis time it din end so well...we gt distant somehow...i was sick...alwaz going hm after coll...neva talk much oso...he din care much oso...so jz end up like nw....i treated him quite bad laz few days...tot it wil do him some gud...time 4 him 2 move on...i actualy told dat 2 jian yao laz nite....den i was like tinking thru mayb jz let us hv a chance n spend dis yr 2geter hapily....
bt den he wanted 2 talk....okey...as usual he was da one talking...i cant voice out even a word...duno wat 2 say at al...he said he wana move on....he should....he kept da flower alive...so nw it's time....he wil stop showing me dat he loves me....dis time he want to....realy....n he asked me DIS IS WAT U WAN RIT? just answer me yes or no....how could i ever answer dat....haizzz....trying hard 2 constrain everyting...nt wana tel him everyting...i duno y....mayb i torture myself abit so i dun feel like i owe him dat much....
chatted wit jian yao n yy abt it....jian yao wil talk 2 him i tink...i duno....watvea happens wil happen....eventualy....dis is hw tings wil end....yy said my reaction was abit 2 much 4 nt liking him....yes i do like him abit....bt den it's nt enuf 2 b wana b wit him...den if i dun wan him 2 move on...wat should he b doing....dats torture....2 cruel d....so ter's ntg i cn do other den jz let him go n move on...well dats wat i was hoping rit....even though i dun wan it to....if da bez way....i realy duno if i cn stil b as close wit him as b4....i dun tink so...it's too much 4 me...u wana move on...bez 4 me wil b jz move away from ur life i tink....
everyting started from his jealousy again....he saw da foto of me n jason dancing in houz....den adding on mike stuff....yy dem were actualy playing a joke in my blog's chat box....den he blived it n gone damn sad....tot i had a bf....haizzz...den plus dat day gerard playing wit me....i was actualy feeling quite uneasy of him doing dat....sort of tickling my back...near my bra strip behind....den vemal was so damn angry...asking what da fuck are u doing....haizzz...if he stayed so much jz a litle bit longer...he would hv jz punched him in da face....
of cz as usual...he ignored me dat few days...i was so fed up i din even wana ask him wat was his prob....i knew smtg was wrong d....den we talked again...bt dis time it din end so well...we gt distant somehow...i was sick...alwaz going hm after coll...neva talk much oso...he din care much oso...so jz end up like nw....i treated him quite bad laz few days...tot it wil do him some gud...time 4 him 2 move on...i actualy told dat 2 jian yao laz nite....den i was like tinking thru mayb jz let us hv a chance n spend dis yr 2geter hapily....
bt den he wanted 2 talk....okey...as usual he was da one talking...i cant voice out even a word...duno wat 2 say at al...he said he wana move on....he should....he kept da flower alive...so nw it's time....he wil stop showing me dat he loves me....dis time he want to....realy....n he asked me DIS IS WAT U WAN RIT? just answer me yes or no....how could i ever answer dat....haizzz....trying hard 2 constrain everyting...nt wana tel him everyting...i duno y....mayb i torture myself abit so i dun feel like i owe him dat much....
chatted wit jian yao n yy abt it....jian yao wil talk 2 him i tink...i duno....watvea happens wil happen....eventualy....dis is hw tings wil end....yy said my reaction was abit 2 much 4 nt liking him....yes i do like him abit....bt den it's nt enuf 2 b wana b wit him...den if i dun wan him 2 move on...wat should he b doing....dats torture....2 cruel d....so ter's ntg i cn do other den jz let him go n move on...well dats wat i was hoping rit....even though i dun wan it to....if da bez way....i realy duno if i cn stil b as close wit him as b4....i dun tink so...it's too much 4 me...u wana move on...bez 4 me wil b jz move away from ur life i tink....
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