Sleepover...Outings...Joyce Farewell...Jiaw House warming...

well dis few days passed kinda upside down....i slp at bt 6 or 7 or even 8am dis few days...went out during da day...kbox...ebox...jusco mostly...i cant realy remember exactly wer i went...cant even rem wat was my laz movie....mayb twilight i tink...nono...smtg was up after dat...ooh i noe...when the earth stood still....den ebox wit ryan n uncle chong...jusco shopping...alot of stuff cramped 2geter...yum cha at frens cafe..sincero riverbank...den farewell 4 joyce at aberdeen cafe...bowling wit dem...abel was realy nt bad...kbox 2dy again...shopping dis few days bought alot realy...mayb rm300...i tink so...

den jz nw szehow's house warming at sri kledang...damn far act....kinda ok lar da hs...alot of ppl...jacky ryan yeow chong yip oso ter...den pin jun ter oso...at 1st stil ok...kinda joking around...den playing cards...den ryan gt wit truth or dare...stupid shit ting...i knew smtg was gona blurt out...he started asking jacky bt his gf...so it's true...i tink da name was xie jia xing...dats da gal...he confess 2 her on x'mas eve...took her 2 waraku i tink den confess at jusco roof top....sure damn romantic lar...hahaha....well kinda hapy 4 him even thou i'm kinda sad oso...bt it's over n i'm glad i can jz 4gt it n move on.....bt da ting is ryan...he kp on asking bt dis as if he wans me 2 noe bt dis as if it's nt paining me 2 hear al dat...stil wana ask me who do i like on dat table...stupid jz wana scrap my face off i tink...den i jz jokingly say uncle chong...mood oso getting bad d....until da end when we wana go hm...i jz dun feel like going on his car again..it wil b like torture..so i jz ask yip 2 fetch me hm oso...i tink i realy look bad...uncle chong kp asking hw am i...den jacky even sms me 2 ask if i'm ok...den ask me nt 2 tink so much...i congrat him oso...n wish him al da bezz...he hope i wont b unhapy...i wil b hapy again...no worries bt dat...i sure can gt over it...soon...

da ting is stil ryan....stupid ignorant fool...when uncle chong ask me who he liked...he said b considerate bt hw ppl would feel....as if he wil noe...when he himself is asking al those ques without tinking of my feeling....stupid shitttt....arrrrggggghhhh...toking 2 uncle chong jz nw...damn angry n frus realy....bt wateva....he stil ask me wats da prob when i duwan 2 sit in his car....it's my choice!!! ter's no rule dat says i hv 2 4low ur car bac hm....bloody fella...stil wana sms me ask nid 2 b ldt izit....yes of cz....totaly strictly a need...!!!!!!

just hanging out...

dis few days...quite lazy 2 rit blog ler....everydy jz fin wit twilight...i'm sort of wondering if i should even slp nw...since it's ald 7am....anoter 1n a half hr...i'll hv 2 wk up n go 2 work again....haizzz...jz fin da 3rd book...eclipse....nice one...as usual....

anoter ting stirring in my mind....ryan i tink purposely mention bt da gal....jacky's fren....he hv his intention mentioning...n i cant resist asking bt it...it was kinda da reason he din exactly go 4 yan so he said...well if nt 4 da distance....since da gal was from his place....tey would hv been 2geter...u know...dats hw he phrased it....dat moment...even b4 he said it out...i was guesing ald....heart paining...crushing....so so damn sked or da answer which i hv ald expected...den he ask if i was ok....of cz i din i say anyting...he kinda din expect dat i was dis tough...mayb cry or wateva i duno...watvea it is...just anoter lesson 2 be learned..gotta move on n nt lose faith...just anoter obstacle 2 tk...live my life b4 it gets 2 late....**

Twilight finished...restless...distractions needed desperately...

whole day sort of used 2 fin da twilight book...online ebook...den went 2 slp a while...den gt so damn restless....nt in da mood 4 anyting at al....den tinking again bt wat da hell jacky was doing ter in da midnite at dat area....haizzzz.....wonder if i should ask him....or nt...haizzzz...damn it damn it....

Meeting...dress...chanele b'day...jacky ryan...clubbing...

kinda filled wit activites 2dy...went 2 work early morn....den meeting...wit chelvi....gt a full spat on da sponsorship letter...haizzz..den emily toking as if she can do everyting...wateva lar...i noe vemal oso nt syok de....den jz went 2 da bank 4 rm300...den bought da dres at laz 4 rm71...gotta change da size abit...kinda loose....came hm jz dress up n change everyting mk up...den jz bt it went out...raining so damn heavily...many roads were flooded....den i reach d....chanele stil hvn reach yet...her bf told me 2 jz go upstairs...den jz sat anoter 2 guys came over 2 sit....later some of dem arrive....eat da buffet lunch...ken seng ryan elaine eric desmond ivan dem al mostly came....den later serene teh oso came...den wenny wong n da duno wat soon d lar....came wit his gf i tink...after some time we went over 2 clubbing at da ex paprika restaurant...it was elaine's cousin's husband was 1 of da investors...den michelle yeoh's cousin oso 1 of dem...den saw da cute guy younger den me lar...den da Anna was actualy elaine's cousin..i din noe dat....den jz hang around....drank heineken...den on da way ter ryan was toking again....stil ok lar....den jz reaching ter...i saw a vry eye catching figure in da myv...den i recognise da number plat n da sunway sticker....it was AFX 1237....dats jacky's car...n it was 12am d....i realy wonder wat was he doing ter....mayb da bao??? or going out wit som1 else??? i dun rem if i saw anybody else in da car.....haizzz...my heart is like totaly crush n da mood gone so so totaly bad....den ryan started asking y n y n y again....arrrgh...den jz went on continue drinking..kinda 4gt bt it d...den jz went hm n ryan told me bt his family prob...i duno y he wana tel me...den he said his dad was wit anoter woman...den his mum was sick....den he was like da oni man in da hs....haizzzzz....hopefully he wont tink 2 much d lar....wateva it is....den lastly he told me....eric told him dat....ryan was trying 2 gt gals using money....n he said it were some gals from my course....i realy wonder who...i neva told anybody..watvea it is...well i dun care....

kinda lazy...meeting....

lazy 2 rit lar 2dy...jz went casuarina...den meeting...SIMPLY UNFASHIONABLE it is...
den kinda heard alot of bad stuff bt ryan from yan n kevin oso.....

Kbox Karaoke...Pasar malam...SMS!!!!! XD

2dy jz wk up den went 2 jusco...kc came 2 fetch most of us...den realy fun lar 2dy singing...saw christina working ter oso...den hao chou oso ter....quite cute lar act...den gt some other cute guys working ter oso...gt 1 gam mou de....hahaha...bt jz gap oni lar...yuk ming mcfelrik...oso went sing k ter...met dem at da entrance....den jinyi was like duno wat hapen lar...emo oni...den we went 2 eat at da food n tea...saw da guy again...bt nt so cute d....pasar malam eat abit oni lar...din met anybody dis time...n jian gt vomit n diaarhea...cant come oso...den sud jacky sms me asking bt da contact lens...den kp on smsing until jz nw he came hm 2 on9....hahaha....hapy lar no mater wat...jz a fren or wateva oso gud....den i jz continue lar...nw stil chating in msn...2mr gona go c boutique...shalani dem oso coming 4 lunch....den yan work in da afternun...bt i din tel her bt da boutique tingy...aiya dun care lar...

haizz..ryan ryan....

duno lar nw....everyting jz nt going well....esp wit ryan....i tink i realy mk him mad d....haizzzz....wat 2 do...i oso duno arrrr....arrrgggh....

boring day again...

haizzz....2dy seriously was worse laar....jz sit ter whole day ntg 2 do....jz reading my book....listening 2 da twilight songs oni.....den sasi vinita n joash oso came....jz watching movie i tink...den jacky kevin ryan szehow dem came as usual....den ntg much lar...kevin kp looking at my contact lens again....hahaha...saying my eyes like popping out....aunt peggy came oso 2dy...den when going lunch at coffee shop...saw jacky sudenly ter...i was like my heart jz dropped or wat....den duno kinda feeling wat lar...den saw ryan ter oso...haizzz....stupid shit him..laz nite called n crap crap al....saying i duwan 2 4low his car him kinda ting....haizzz....damn fan realy...n i duno wat da hell 2 say d....as if al i did was wrong n unfair n cruel 2 him....arrrgh..den once szehow was looking over here...den we like smiling den he nudge jacky...i was like my god...den jz went bhind da wall...stupid shit like an idiot....den after work went 2 yum cha wit dem...szehow jacky n ryan...kinda stil ok lar...bt half da time duno wat da hell tey were toking bt...tey went swiming i tink...den stay overnite at jacky's place...jz tot of looking 4 jacky in msn...bt din chat much lar...after knowing ryan was ter....din wana mk so much trouble 4 jacky oso...if nt duno wat da hell he wil say 2 jacky again...stupid shit...jz wish him luck....n crazy ryan again...dun realy feel like toking 2 him so jz kina fu hin....den he start crap again...wateva lar i dun care d....

JUST STAND FIRM AND DO NOT LET ANYBODY INTIMIDATE YOU!!!

n den i was listening 2 dis song....STILL BELIEVE IN LOVE by Jenny Hyun....realy nice n suiting lyrics 4 me actualy....it goes smtg ldt....

It was a clear summer day
when I saw the tears on your face
I knew that our time was up on us
Our moment of end was so fast
but the kiss of goodbye always lasts
not even time could fade it away

Even though you are no longer here
there is still something between us
Even though life isn't fair
I'll never lose my trust

Just another lesson to be learned
gotta move on and not lose faith
just another obstacle to take
live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up, I won't stay down
this is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love

I'm holding the warmth of your lips
it feels like the time we first kissed
when all of the stars lined up for us
but like the wind you said goodbye
and left me alone here to cry
we shouldn't have gone our separate ways

Even though you are no longer here
there is still something between us
Even though life isn't fair
I'll never lose my trust

Just another lesson to be learned
gotta move on and not lose faith
just another obstacle to take
live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up, I won't stay down
this is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love

Just another lesson to be learned
gotta move on and not lose faith
just another obstacle to take
live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up, I won't stay down
this is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love

n den ter's anoter song called ALMOST LOVER...anoter song wit meaningful lyrics...

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
No
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Open day & Peng B'day

dis morn wk up early....laz nite damn late oni slp lar....den jz slp 4 3 hrs....2dy jz oni listening 2 talks....den ntg much 2 do oso....den jacky ryan szehow uncla chong dem al came oso....jz 2 revise i tink...den jacky actualy notice dat i was wearing grey contact lens.....hahaha....n he said wana gt a pair himself 2...jz no $$ n lazy 2 buy...i kinda recommend dark brown 4 him....hahaha....cant realy imagine him wearing it...mayb wil look like vampire oso....den at laz he send me an sms after he of9...jz 2 say he gona slp lar....hahaha....he coming oso i tink 2mr....hehehe....hapy hapy...

den jz nw went 2 breeze cafe 4 peng's b'day...kinda sing alot....den tok bt x'mas....going bbq in keat's hs....den new yr oni going 2 kl....so c lar hw later...den yy ask me 2 go wit her 2 kl on mon n tues....mayb no prob lar i tink....hahaha....can go shoping oso....saw joanne's fren...laz time went clubing ones....4gt wat name d...jz da patrick i noe was ter oso...den yan oso noe bt da guess bag...ryan told her almost everyting....den she jz told every1 ter jz nw...haizzz.....

den uncle chong 2dy told me bt ryan....he act told jacky dat werever he asking me 2 go...he wont ask him oso....haizzz...wat da fuck lar him....wats his prob nw....stupid shit...hw can he ruin me n jacky jz ldt....aaarrrrggghhh....if nt i realy tink we hv a chance....den uncle chong ask me 2 grab da chance myself oso...hmmmm mayb i jz gona do dat....wakakaka.....c lar hw later.....c hw everyting goes....open 2 more chances.....jz tk everyting ez as it goes......XD

TWILIGHT!!!!! facinating and wonderfully superb!!!!!

luv it luv it luv it!!!!!! totaly luv da movie....da story da character n everyting in it...cant wait 4 da sequel....n i am so so gona get da book.....da eyes of edward...oh my god....dazzling n mezmerising.....totaly unstoppable......later gona post lots of fotos....jz download d.....since coming bac from coll....totaly disapointer lar wit jacky....din even wana look at me or wateva....haizzz..fine lar....den gt briefing from fahame bt da open day....arrgghh...hv 2 wear da stupid sunway grey t'shirt...so damn ugly lar....k larr....later going rum jungle d....kinda feel bad lar nt going out wit yy....haizzz....bt 2mr going out larr....hehehe....rit on da dot....nw gona go bath.....n RUM JUNGLE HERE I COME!!!!!

EXAM'S OVER!!!!!! x'mas gift????

hahaha...at laz exam's over...bt my t10 i duno wat hapen larr...npv so damn confusing....n everybody gt positiv npv....duno y i gt negativ oso....haizzz...dun care d lar it's over n done....so b it...jz gona wait 4 da results....well...jz after exam...anoter bomb....ryan gave me a guess pink clutch bag with a mirror oso.....haizzz...sure damn expensiv lar....crazy dude....den told yy...scold me again...den gt chat wit ryan lar...everyting jz clear....as frens....dats al...no expectations...den i kinda ok wit it lar...n jz nw went moonriver with everybody...jz hang out....having fun chat n drink....den went nasmir oso...met christina ter....den jz came hm lar...chat wit jacky oso...stupid dumb...duno wat asking bt hw 2 noe if some1 chat wit da person she like...wat da heck he craping...wonder if he's toking bt me da she....bt i dun tink so ler....sobzzz....mayb jz let go or wateva lar....duno duno duno...den 2mr mayb going watch movie wit bavanee dem....hehehe....n work lar duno hw....c ler afternoon hw...mayb jz go bac work until 5.30pm....haizzz....gona slp nw lar...damn late d oso....n dis from jacky....printscreen so called...

laz day lar 2mr.....arrrghhh....

well 2dy t9...haizzz..i oso duno lar dis paper hw....like quite alot wrong duno wer oso....haizzz..worst paper until nw....my god..... den went 2 coll quite late...jacky oso in da lib....din even look at me dun say smile or wat lar....nt even acknowledge my presence...haizz..bt wat da heck...i did jz da same ting on ryan....haizzz....true as it says...wat goes around comes around.....mayb dats wat jacky trying 2 do oso...wan me 2 jz 4get it....den fine lar..i'l jz try my bez 2 do so....hopefully ryan wil oso....den he sud send me rm3....haizzz..duno wat 2 say d....jz he sms say beta left some credit...den later can send him bac da rm3.....den jz nw went pasar malam...saw joyce n da 1 4gt wat name d....den yy al da aus frens oso ter d...da xian chan was ter oso...den din c much ppl lar...saw jung yeow as usual...hahaha....den so so damn crowded da whole place....so hard 2 even walk thru da ppl....den yy jz nw complain bt jinz....his stupid mouth again lar...say dis n dat..soon ken oso wana mention...haizzz...duno wat 2 say oso...yy kp saying duwan 2 c him...haizz...bt yilee leh....den mayb 2mr nite gona go yum cha n chat wit her....she say sometimes feel like aus geh frens even beta den dem al...haizzzz...mayb ppl realy do change ler...most obvious wil b yy kee hyin oso abit act....den others abit here n ter...haizzz...mayb i myself changed bt neva realise oso...haizzz..wateva lar...al dis jz norm of life....den din go anyting jz nw oso...wana study oso no mood d....den i tink shalani asked sasi b4 bt dem.....bt he said jz frens oni...den she oso cant do anyting unless he tel da truth...haizzz...stupid guy lar...hopefully 2mr no prob...nw jz gona slp n 2mr morn oni continue my exam papers.....

exam exam damn stress....haizzzz...

joanne's b'day ytd nite...some of her frens came lar...bt none of da guys r even ok....haizzz...jz eat n eat...den play wit shevone...ntg much...den mum was like so in2 da whole ting....crazy...din get 2 go 2 pc fair oso...haizzzz.....end up wit ntg...n den sau ying was like getting mad of me alwaz going out....wat 2 do....tot wont go out wit frens..cc stil gt smtg up everydy....den 2dy public hol oso went bac col lib 2 work...close at 5.30pm den hp oso no more credit...cant cal...den wait until tey fin exam oso i hvn gone bac....haizzz....so so in a bad mood d dat time..so jz feel like crying oni...den came hm jz slp until nw eat dinner....den starting wit t9 again...haizzz...so so nt in da mood d lar.....wat da heck....

den jacky put his pm as never let u go....wonder who would dat b....mayb yan...well most probably....so stop al dis shit!!!!!

Halo Cafe...Will...Power Search....

well...ytd nite went 2 halo cafe....will was performing ter...nt bad lar him....gt 6 awards in da award ceremony....den jz hang out ter...din go dance clas oso....after dat sandy dem told me bt da power search on 2dy....den said al da newcomers hv 2 tk part.....so 2dy jz went n sing teardrops on my guitar...will's comment was dat i gt a nice voice...bt jz stil duno hw 2 control it....esp going up 2 high notes....stil floating oni....den english songs as usual...mayb da slang prob lar.....well...no matter wat i hv a bit more confidence nw as i hv already gt a gud comment.....dat my voice is actualy gud!!!!!
hahahahaha....hapy hapy....den jien wei went oso wit his gf....he gt in2 da training ting....den anoter gal came n gt da chance oso...bt i dun tink she's dat gud....n she gona sing in halo cafe 4 1 yr contract oso.....hmmm....looks like my chance lessen again d lar....neva mind ler...jz do my bez n enjoy!!!!!!

haizzz....jacky again....

well ytd lunch....act when ryan ask me i oso say d duwan 2 go lar....den later uncle chong say teman me go eat...den he sud argue wit suki...so damn angry n fierce...sked oso...den after dat cc ryan stil waiting outside ter...ish ish....den he say wana go eat oso...waiting 4 me....arrrgh..den jz nw oni uncle chong told me...ryan tot he wana tackle me......haizzzz...den signal wana teman me eat wo....wat da hell lar.....

da nite b4 we went pasar malam....den met dusit....chat abit lar...wana c who i went wit again...hahaha....sud sms me halfway...hahaha...after dat went 2 tong gu teng 2 eat...kee fetch me hm....den told her bt my complicated story....she oso told me bt da chee yong...he act confess d....n kiss her on da cheeks few times oso...bt she reject him d....den anoter 1 is her clasmate...quite surprising oso...den she oso nt sure which 1 she likes...haizzzz....den jian dem oso duno bt dis i tink...as wat she said lar...

den laz nite went 2 keat's hs 2 drink...jack daniel's n red label......bt da red label sucks lar realy....like cockcroach taste oni....yuck...den we play game lar...damn fun n crazy totaly...den al da gals went 2 slp overnite at jun's hs....cyong oso went....haha...realy surprising leh....den we wk up early morning 2dy..cyong jz throw da bolster at me 2 wk me up....hahaha....den chatted abit wit wei...jz went 2 prepare den coll lar....ryan ask me 4 lunch again 2dy....den i say duwan....he said jacky is going oso wo.....ish ish...so wana jz hit him....den jz leave it lar...den gam ngam tey came bac from lunch....jacky went out on his hp....den tey arrive 2 fetch me oso...went on da car kp asking me izit him jacky....hahaha....gone lar gone...den ryan oso came out....ish ish....

den jz sing k lar....sing n sing n sing....kee oso nt bad d lar her singing act....so went jusco get smtg for jun....den went hm...damn slpy act after bathing....watch dream of colours abit....jz nw chating wit chanele oso....i jz put only in dreams as my msn pm....den she ask y d....jz tel abit ldt lar....well she noe most of it d....sun kei ji yin....dats wat she says...true oso lar...den she going singapore d 2mr...so syok...come bac oni celeb her b'day...chatting wit yy oso....she ar as usual...toking bt love life wit her means gik d lar....ahahahaha....diferent opinion lar totaly....well...cant do anyting bt it....so b it lar den.....den 2mr work again...jz gona study study study....

exam exam exam....arrrggghh.....

having exam d lar...2dy t6 ok lar...should b no prob i tink...can score oso mayb....jz 2mr t7 duno hw lar....shit gona shit....like no heart 2 wana study d....den jz nw commenting on da fotos....stupid sze how i tink he noe smtg d lerr....saying bt wat ryan n jacky de....ish ish....gona die lar me....jz ignore ler.....stil kinda looking at jacky..noticing bt him...bt den i dun tink it's love or wat lar...jz crush oni....so wat lar....den jz gt my new hair cut....actualy feel kinda wierd....arrrghh....kp spelling it wrongly...jacky say again d....weird...haizzz.....kinda lala at 1st...cz it's less hair...den da top kinda fluffy....bt den nw i kinda like dis new hair style...gona maintain dis a while....den mayb later wil curl it again...hehehehe...n tried on a few bikinis ytd....hahaha...funny lar da whole gang joanne kevin dem al in parade....al looking at me trying it on....jz gona c da jusco 1 1st...den oni decide which 2 buy...n oh yeah...da titus watch....bt rm629 originally...den after discount bt rm377...oh my god....dis is da 1st time mum wana buy me smtg so expensiv....hahaha....den jz nw ask me izit realy wana buy...of cz lar i wont miss dis chance....hahaha....cute pink nice titus watch....!!!!!!wakakakaka.....bez x'mas present ever!!!!

stupid lan again...n duno y feel one kind tinking of ryan n jacky...urrgghh...

lan ppl came 2dy....even thou i nt working..bt stil hv 2 standby over ter...haizzz...until damn hungry...at laz went 2 eat wit uncle chong dem...at da coffee shop....den jz work again..as usual...ntg much lar...den jacky sud came oso...n ask wer is uncle chong...den ask hv i eaten ant....den jz nw chanele send me da fotos....haizzz....most of dem gt ryan inside....arrgh...bt den when i saw jacky's foto oso...i feel realy one kind....cant explain wats dat.....haizzzz....jz so b it lar....he's nt dat gud of a guy either act...jz crush on him....n den gt t9 2dy....55.5 marks oni...haizzz...hv 2 do more ques ler...den 2dy flu somemore...damn headache d....ryan kp asking go yum cha wit chanele yuki elaine dem around 9pm...bt den din feel like going lar....n tey made an mtv wit chanele dumping ryan 4 ken seng....n ryan was smoking inside ter...i tink he sked of letting me c him smoking oso....so wat...no use oso....den jz enjoying my blog n pet society...den editing da fotos...stupid jacky sure nx time i nt gona nudge him unless he do so...if nt he wil hv no response at al...n jz wat wat wat...arrrgh...ok nw gona upload da fotos n tag....

shoPping in kl!!!! yupz yupz...n back 2 ipoh damn sick....

cutie...aiya..forgot wats her name d...hahaha....

fishy jelly

dat morn join mum n dem....jz change n went 2 da new hs....bt act i prefer marshall's hs more....realy simple n nice...comfortable...n love da book shelf....saw one realy nice red bookshelf worth rm185 in ikea n anoter flower light...damn cute....n da pillow love one was rm29....hahaha....gona buy da shelf nx time going kl i tink...yahoo!!!! hahaha....den gona arrange my room again...den jz enjoy da nite....nx day went shopping...hahaha...yeap gt 5 dress n tops....wakakaka....yahoo....den laz day went ikea lar...gt my silver shoe at laz...hehehe....

our delicious dinner in restoran shi hao....in times square....

den i rem one nite i dreamt abt jacky oso...duno wat..bt smtg like a party....alot alto of ppl were ter....mum n dad was ter too...den we were sort of hugging....den sud some young ppl having fun jumping down from da roof.....such disturbing scenes.....

den 2dy seriously coughing like mad.....my god realy....den jz go hm n slp...den com bac 4 review again.....slping halfway....i dreamt abt jacky again....dis time i went 2 his apartment i tink...2 get smtg bt i dun rem wat lar....den i was like taking smtg while sitting on da bed...he jz came from behind n i was leaning on him....he was like scratching smtg....den i sud gt so warm n slpy n drowsy....totaly cant even move....he was asking is dis comfortable...my god...it was like slping in heaven...hahaha....den suddenly he duno went wer...after saying smtg bt his aunty coming or wat...den he went out n his family came in....his father look so fierce n den his mum said jacky hv 2 study...nt gona waste time on dis...den i explain dat we jz frens....i'm stil studying oso....den i tink i wk up d....hahaha...bt i luv da part wer i slp on him...totaly warm n melting.....hahaha...bt stil it's jz a dream.....

n my eom....t6 gt 87....t7 gt 31....t9 duno yet....t10 gt 51....hahaha....jz t7 lar nw...others i tink can pass lar act...jz dat hoping 4 higher marks mayb....t6 can lar....den 2mr gona review again t9 n t7.....lan ppl coming oso....den siti having fever zee say....2dy oni like so close wit sukvin again...duno wats up lar wit dem.....jz gona concentrate on my exam nw....den ytd i was so damn high...kp on laughin n laughing like hell oni...den 2dy sasi's b'day...he n vemal n peh went 2 drink....ah peh ended up like hellboy...totaly red....

den jacky 2dy when i went hm he came....den when i came bac he went hm....4 da plumber he said....den jz nw chatted lar like normal....jz as i tot....he say ugly wit specs...stupid him....

Murni & Ampang Lookout Point!!! N suddenly bad mood....

wait until damn long at laz get 2 go 2 murni 4 dinner in ss2...bt more like supper....wait until bt 11 smtg oni gt 2 eat....b4 dat went 2 fetch khidir's fren Aftar or smmtg ldt....indian guy..kinda nice funny guy lar..den da murni has no menu...kinda have any kind of food u wan....b it chinese indian mamak malay or even western food....we had da cheese naan...mee raja tomyam...i drank da kiwi ice blended....inside ter's some watermelon too...kinda nice....den ah tai 4lowed too...she drank da pink panther which is act watermelon mix pineapple....kinda wierd taste 4 me....hahaha...it was jz a smal stall....bt den da chairs n tables were like da whole street totaly...filled wit ppl of al kinds.....

after dat we went 2 da ampang look out point...realy a romantic kl nite view....ter is a lower part which u can oni park ur car n stand by da road n enjoy da view....den anoter part is higher up where ter's car park...den u hv 2 walk rit up da beautiful garden feel staircase....up 2 da gasoline cafe n den anoter one called duno wat leaf tingy cafe....bt den gasoline was closed....so we had 2 sit at da other cafe....da higher place was act nicer....sit at side table was best of all.....den with da light music on....kinda listening 2 da song...from SHE wo ai ni....realy romantic.....den hyin said dis is wer she n khidir started....ah tai told us her n her bf started act from a sunrise in penang....damn damn romantic lar......hahahaha....waiting 4 my turn though....haizzzz....

bt den nw bac 2 hm d....damn geram duno y suddenly....esp toking 2 kc n jun...damn damn gik....den da ryan oso....duno y sud so gik...mayb cz period or wat oso i duno lar.....haizzz....jz feel like scolding n hitting somebody....2 bad nobody 4 me 2 do so.....haizzzz...den khidir n hyin stil in side da room....kinda wierd 2 go in n slp nw....haizzz...jian n jun stil studying den nt slping....kc was listening 2 music n jz went 2 slp after kicking in2 my chair as his goal....which ended up being scolded by me....hahahaha......damn damn funny....totaly sked d lar him....seriously duno y he's here.....came al da way...bt den din 4low us much anywer...clubing oso forced 2 go....den ampang oso duwan 2 4low....haizzz...crazy dude....kp singing 2 himself oni....haizzzz..no eye c d....

Euphoria!!!!!!!!! Ministry of Sound!!!!!

damn damn damn syok n fun!!!!!! 2 bad hyin din get 2 go in....tey checked our ic..den jian n yun dem ask ppl 2 help oso knt...so jz went away wit khidir...hyin act went 2 queue at anoter entrance bt den when da ppl ask 4 b'day..she sort of hesitate so tey knew it's nt her ic she's using...den kp on dancing like crazy...sexysexy...ahahaha...wear bobos top at laz....it bcm my dress....damn short....bt ntg lar 4 clubing..hahaha...

den was da dancing part....at 1st jz gals...den some guys came by oso...jz dancing behind..some tried 2 put da arms around my waist....bt mostly t handsome oso....bt den when we went out 2 rest abit at da staircase...ter's dis cute guy....nick tey say from taylors oso....sam engineering....he was sort of standing ter oso...looking looking...den yun's fren having b'day party ter in da vip room..he gt so damn drunk until seriously knocked out....he vomited on da sofa oso i tink..den his frens hv 2 cary him out....his leg was like can even move....he was like carried in da form of superman....hahahaha....den after dat we went in 2 dance again....oni me wei jinyi n yilee....jian n kc were outside...damn tired....den we went in...da nick he was wearing an oreef shirt i tink....so sort of known him as reef....den he was dancning ter oso..den gt behind me n started dancing 2geter....damn funny lar him...wana grab my waist bt dun realy dare 2 ldt...den dancing n clapping hands sud ldt...wierd lar kinda....hahaha...bt den he's stil cute....den some time after dat he went away duno wer d....sobz.....nick nick....

saw a group of guys circling da dance floor oso...ter was dis realy damn cute guy...i tink da bez in da club laz nite....bt din realy dance much....jz stand ter....at laz when we were dancning...few of his frens sort of took turn 2 dance behind us....ter was dis 1 damn close behind until i can even feel his damn dick...rising somemore i tink....den jinyi kp on helping us turning us around.....hahahaha...damn funny...bt da cute guy jz stand ter oni....din even come over 2 dance...seriously if he was 2 dance wit me i realy dun mind at al....hahahahaha....

da club closed at 3am so we went 2 yum cha...realy damn thirsty...we got a free drink 4 ladies...i tink da 2nd 1 was vodka lime....quite nice....den jz went hm n chat chat al da while....toking bt chee yong n kee.....den told my story...damn damn complicated...hahahaha....den jz random chat n al....peng oso mentioned....i din no he was wit his bf 4 10 mths d....so damn long jor...den slp at bt 8.30am....hahahaha...jinyi n yilee miss their bus oso..hv 2 gt taxi n join her mum...den we wk up at abt 2.30pm ldt...went 2 sunway pyramid bbq plaza 2 eat..it's act da thai style sort of steamboat tingy....damn damn full.den gt belanja from kee jian n jun....hehehhe...thankz thankz realy....dat would b act rm15.....den came hm jz tey al went slping...until nw act....den oh ya i got period damn it..stress lar mayb realy....

jz nw chating wit jacky again....on da webcam show me dot dot oso...hahaha...den he gt his leg injured on wed...thurs went 2 c doc...pity him....huge leg wit bandage....hahahaha....kena during futsal......den nw bac in langkap d....he nt sure whether going kl ant oso dis yr....duno gona drive ant oso.....c ler.....nt gona tink so much d lar.....ter's so much more chances 4 me out ter....hahaha...jz gona continue waiting 4 my rit guy...others nw jz b frens n c hw it goes.....wink wink....

going kl!!!!!!!

2dy's t10 nt bad lar act....stil considered done....jz some realy 4gt wat da hell lar...hahaha...den ntg 2 do...jz hang out a while in da lib....zainal abidin was crazy scolding 4 id again....haizzzz....until everyone oso ng song d....esp chanele i tink kp on scolding him like shit....siti n sukvin was kinda gud again...bt nt 4 me...nvm nvm....ntg much 2 me...den after dat jz went hm...den gt my atm card at lazz....adult book stil gota change later....den took out rm300 4 kl trip....den pack n try da outfits....at laz jz gona wear bac da same dress lar....kuku made potato mash mushroom soup n pork chop again....nice nice n healthy kinda....hahaha....realy eat alot of potato recently....fattening....2mr gona go kl!!!! yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Exam & Love stress....haizzz....

exam larrr eom...haizzz...3 down 1 more 2 go...t6 n t9 stil ok lar....bt den t7 is like shit....total shit..i tink 2mr t10 oso wil b anoter piece of shit....den anoter ting is....ryan....jz nw went pasar malam wit him...den gone gila on da way bac...sort of like screaming d...den he toking bt food chain....ryan like mich...mich like jacky...jacky like yan...yan like kevin...kevin stil like ex....haizzz..stupid chain.....no turn back point....gila gila...sort of same situation jz dat he dun hv anybody behind him....da worst lar means....n den yan jacky even chanele oso noe bt dis...am i realy dat obvious???? mayb so....cz da look i giving him...haizzz...realy hv 2 stop it lar....if nt gona scare him i tink....den ytd toking 2 him chating stil ok lar...like normal..bt when he c me in person...like so sked...haizzz...dun care lar so much....den ryan toking toking den sud cried...oh my god...i realy din noe wat 2 do...he kp asking me 2 4gt bt jacky 1st...haizz...bt i stil hoping i tink....wat 2 do...let time goes lar...let it flow....nw jz gona fin exam 1st...den go kl fun fun fun!!!!!

P.S. den nw rem d da stapler n lollipop story....act i sitting at da counter working....den sud he asking bt jacky...sms on da hp somemore....den stil i din answer him lar....den ter's a stapler n lollipop on da counter...he said....ter's a lollipop alwaz waiting 4 me 2 eat....no matter i throw it in da dustbin or werever...it wil stil come bac n wait....bt den da stapler....ter's no bullets inside...no matter hw much i wana use it....it cant b used...dats hw he described it...bt den i was stil playing wit da stapler....n duwan 2 eat da lollipop.....hehehe....n dis r some of my love stapler bullets....

stupid crazy vemal

monday morn....he suddenly sms me saying bt wat i sory 4 loving me...den nt gona tink 2 much d....n dat HIS HEART IS NOT A TOY!!!!! wat da heck is dat????? stupid shit...den cc later abel told me dat act sunday tey talk bt dis....he told him dat i said no chance d lar...haizzz...mayb dats y he send me dat sms...den when i reply dat i neva treat his heart like a toy....he said i din realise oso....n smtg abt dis biggest blow...den congratulations....arrrrgh he's like copying wat i said 2 him....ish ish stupid dumb him....go n die larrr.....

Vemal's confession...again...A MESSAGE FROM MY HEART !!!

Love 2 me was just a word, which I never really bothered about until i meat u, someone who gave da word a meaning. To have known you and to have loved you has been the most beautiful dream; I can only hope that I never wake up. I seriously cannot put into words hw u make me feel, all I noe is that It was a real wonderful feeling… a day spent with u,even for a moment can really make my day…at the beginning I never really knew what was going on…becoz I was unable 2 describe the feeling, it was all new 2 me….maybe that’s just love, it just happens without condition..

I would like 2 ask u a question, can u tell me the difference between love and like? Well Michelle, in my experience, after u came into my life, I was able 2 differentiate the words, when there is a reason why u have a little something for that someone.it is not called love it is called like..becoz in love there are just no reasons..it just happens…and when it does…the sky is da limit..2 tell u frankly I saw what was inside u, I saw your inner beauty, I was so vulnerable, that I just fell for u…!! My love for u can’t be expressed by mere words…You know you love someone when you cannot put into words how they make you feel.

a Wiseman once told me that only fool’s rush, and maybe I was 1… but I could not help myself, I loved you so much that I was afraid I will lose u and I confessed my hearts feelings....but 2 my fate the tables turned… Now that I have loved so purely and deeply, I have realized how lonely I really was. I always asked my self Why is it easy to fall in love and yet so hard to be loved back? Why should I feel such if destiny permits me not? Why do I have to fall if it's you I can’t have? Why is there a "you" in "me"but never a "me" in "you”? Loving you was easy, losing you was hard. Loving you is still easy, but knowing you will never be mine, is the hardest of it all.
when I’m in love, another girl, no matter even if she’s Jessica alba, will be only a passing shadow 2 the eyes, becoz 2 me u are everything…even up 2 this very day…! Michelle 2 my eye, there’s never a thing which can be compared 2 u, as I said before u will only know hw special you are 2 me if u are able 2 c ureself in my eyes.

2 tell u the truth, even after u told me 2 move on, what made me go on was merely because I never gave up on u…im telling u now….even up 2 today….i knew what I felt in me was real and I noe it was pure…seriously..im being open, there was never lust in my love at all, and its coming from my heart…I was just going with the flow…and just let time decide…but 1 thing is for sure, my possessiveness for u grew…I just could not control myself. Through out, we went through a lot of bitter, sweet. But my love only grew for u…!! my fren’s told me 2 just give it about 2 months+, and I will get over it….but the fact is until 2 day I can never ever forget u….!! I just which da 22nd of august 2008 never existed….haizzz..recently there were some complications along the way… and I went down falling into hell..it was 2 painfull for me even 2 handle…and that was the period which I laid low for a while. But even after that…my love for u has never changed…I noe I cannot make u love me, maybe god was nt fair 2 me, that’s all..its like I have no license 2 show u hw much I care and 2 show u what I feel for u…it really hurts..!!

I started listening 2 a lot of love songs, because it gave meaning 2 my love and a place where I can surrender my heart 2…If a day goes by that I don't say I love you, always know that I do. I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi or even smile at me because I know, even if it’s just for a second, that I've crossed your mind. If I count how many times you've crossed my mind in my entire life, I’d be lying if I said it was too many because you only crossed my mind once, why? Because You never left ... Michelle always remember this When i tell you I love you, I don’t say it out of a habit or to start a conversation, I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me…..

Well michelle, I just felt like sharing this out with you…It was all trapped in me and I just wanted it all 2 come out.. if I would hv said anything wrong then do forgive me…just noe that u will always be special 2 me..!! vemal

TJ's b'day...karaoke...confession email...abel's talk....

lunch jz went 2 MY POINT 4 jian yao's b'day...sort of mostly gals...vemal...yuk ming...carmen...lulu.....kiran...emily...sukvin...vivian...hui yi...yoke ching...dats bt it i tink....n me of cz...den met hyin n khidir ter oso...laz lunch in ipoh 4 mr carrot juice....hahaha...den went bac jz wait 4 ryan dem 2 come fetch me...vemal sasi kokseng jian yao dem went drinking...realy thani...mid day afternoon..gila lar...orange vodka....duno y suddenly oso....

den karaoke...sing until gila realy...me jacky ryan n chanele....chanele sang more of cantonese songs...den kp on smoking bt 4 i tink...den sort of got emo lar me...listening jacky singing love songs..bt tinking his heart has oni yan....haizzz...wat 2 do..jz hv 2 let go of it...den long time neva chat wit him oso....duno wer he went....should hv went bac 2 langkap d i tink....gila abit d oso lar...den ryan said he noe who's in my heart...den i ased he said jacky...he guessed it ald bt nw totaly confirmed..he kp singing da songs inside al gt meaning 4 me...haizzz...wat am i 2 do lar...den jz went dinner at UNIQUE SEAFOOD RESTAURANT as farewell 4 winnie...she going 2 work in kl i tink...anoter 1 gone jz ldt...

n 2dy ryan ask 2 go lunch n diner oso...bt in da end i din go lar both...jz dun feel like it...n gt my reasons nt 2 go oso....hahaha....after dat 2dy bought alot of stuff....2 skirts...luv dem...3 pants....n 1 shirt....hahahaha...later ni gona post da fotos....can take dem 2 kl n wear lar nw....hahahaha...syok!!!!

den sud got vemal's msg....oh ya...1dy's mcflurry was from vemal...act i sort of guess it ald....hardly seems 2 b vinita sud buying me food....as i was correct in da end....haizzz....den he asked me 2 check my mail....den giv him feedback...i hv ald seen it....y nt i jz post it here....wait ar...later....haizzz...wat kinda feedbac he expect from me larrr......

jz chatted wit abel oso....he asked bt vemal...den ask bt who's my crush nw....as in i say jacky lar of cz...den he asked izit i stil gt smtg 4 him....hahah....damn da honesty....den jz say mayb bit bit nt much oso lar...den he said...he gt feelings 4 mei theng b4 dis....n he made some move oso....she oso gt smtg 4 him...bt den hw nt sure of his feelings....mayb 4 pj n fang ying oso...so in da end jz let it go....den later oni joash came by...dats bt it larr 4 nw...gona chat mayb again 2mr in da lib...hahaha....

Chocs...sweet....Canopy Opening!!!

vemal asked siti 2 pas me da chocs...ferrero roche...big box....den anoter belgian choc....godiva platinum collection....realy nice...i dun tink it's cheap oso....

canopy opening....at 1st realy din wana go...recently kp tinking bt jacky...den vemal...den ryan...troubling toughts seriously....den jacky was working 4 digi...so when he say nt going...i din feel like going oso....later he say going n ask if i wana go...den ryan fetch us both....after dat eric n ken seng was ter....jz drinking....heineken....tey paid of cz...i was getting bit drunk...kp laughing....tey al shaking da beer until everyting came out...den at laz knt tahan d....total emo....went out n sat down...ryan n jacky duno went wer oso....den ryan came over n sit down...ask am i sked of him....duno wat 2 asnwer....den say sometimes i tink...he said nw jz being frens....dun b so cold 2 him...tok tok bit den he left n jacky came....asked da ques at lazz...he stil like yan ant...he said he cant do anyting since she gt anoter person in mind...den yes he said of cz stil having her in mind....den dats enuf 4 me d....can realy let go when i confirmed dis....act i noe it deep in my heart...al along...jz dat i try nt 2 admit n hope dat he act had feelings 4 me...bt actual fact is dat i was trying 2 trick myself in bliving it....haizzzz....so nw jz gona let go...everyting....damn spinning da head...when i sms jacky saying he's a nice guy....he says i dun even noe him well...true oso...hw long hv i known him....2 judge him....den jz so b it....den ryan jz gona b normal frens wit him....try nt 2 b so mean....chris oso...pity him sometimes...haizzz....jz hoping n trying nt 2 do wat i am sked of tings ppl wil do 2 me.....

ryan created anoter verse 4 me....

P&C....i guessed as Paranoid & Crazy....den he said Pretty & Clever....in da end...

PRETTY BUT PARANOID....CLEVER BUT CRAZY....!!!!

true oso i can say...hahaha....

den jz nw went out movie Madagascar 2 escape to africa....nice cute funny movie.....hahahaha....had lots of laugh....den went 2 eat behind jusco....fok sing ter....use alot of money paying dis n dat....haizzz...wat 2 do....LIFE GOES ON.....

6 B'day Celebration!!!! haha...XD

hahaha...seriously.....

1st Indulgence with Ryan
2nd Canopy with Ryan Jacky Chanele n others
3rd Moven peak with CAT ACCAs
4th Breeze Cafe with Ipoh peeps
5th Rum Jungle with Ipoh peeps again
6th Kizuna with dearest family

hahaha....realy enjoyed dis yr's b'day....totaly super duper 18th burfday!!!!! dis morn as usual went 4 work...kinda quiet 2dy...den abel sud asked wat i tink bt kaho...den saying he's worth considering..yeng oso...hahaha...den i mention da oni prob wit him is smoking....when kaho came bc from smoking he actualy repeated everyting 2 him....hahahaha....den damn it cough until like crazy....den kaho n abel going lunch....gave me hacks on da way....hehehe....should b listening 2 me cough until gila....after dat went halo cafe 4 meeting....usual tings again...punctual...chose songs...gt 2 noe more frens....den siti sud sms saying she bought me present d....hahaha...wonder wats dat....after dat jz went hm....yan was having headache so din go 4 work oso....jz called zuki 2 tel him...den later KIZUNA....hehehe....wore da new dress....gift from eric....hahaha....nice food lar...yummy....totaly full...kp on taking fotos....hahaha...den da yee sue was ter oso..kp looking at me...bt din smile wit her....duno jz dun feel like it....den when we went bac i tink she purposely told her family n said it loud 4 me 2 hear...da gal from my coll oso....den came hm...told mum al bt everybody...ryan...vemal...n jacky....she guessed dat i like jacky oso...hahaha...realy mummy....den jz check da mms he sent dat day...realy damn cute....da cat singing b'day song....hahahaha...luv it totaly....in my heart da cutest wish realy which i wont 4get....hehehe....n i rem i overheard jacky saying smtg bt da other 1 more abit....den ryan saying dat means gt lar....mayb would b like yan more abit...bt on me oso gt....dats wat i tinking...might b anoter stuff....jz let it b lar nw...dun care so much d....bt luv da bear though....hahaha...keep on taking fotosss...later gona gather al n ad 2geter....hehehe....