Vemal

laz nite chating alot wit shalani...nw i noe...he was realy quite mad abt me going out alone wit other guys...haizzz.....dats y dat day so cold 2 me lerrr...stil wana deny...haizzzz.....den emily actualy asked if he was fetching me....den he said i din even wana ask him 2 fetch me....sobzzzzz....wat da hcek lerrrr....i oso duno wat i'm tinking d....according 2 shalani...i kinda like him ald....am i realy falling 4 him?????i realy duno lerrrr....i duno wat i wan d....i stil wan my freedom....bt i wan him 2 treat me special...haizzz....i noe i noe...so so unfair 4 him....hw cn he tolerate wit me alwaz going out wit other guys....it wil totaly b hell 4 him.....feeling so bad torturing him ldt....so so so wana tok tings out wit him....mayb dis wed bt kenny dem ask 4 movie d....so mayb 2mr after swiming or thur ni ask him go movie lerr....he say gona treat it as a date....hahaha....c hw it goes...XD

still tinking...lost...

he jz dun get it lerr...it's jz gal stuff mayb....or mayb i'm da oni 1 tinking so much....i mean y do i care so much if he's cold or hot 2 me....wat da hell is dis...he says he's lost 2...n y is dat so....haizzzzz....at hm ku ku stil wont bother me much....it's like sudenly everybody who cared 4 me doesn't wana bother me anymore....is ter a prob wit me???? n wats dat????

dat chong stil pestering 2 c me dis wkend..haizzz...n i jz remember dat i've gt dance clas 2mr which i hv 2 skip again....sobzzzz....wat da heck lerrr....wonder if i wil enjoy 2mr???

reflection???? i realy duno who or wat i'm doing nw...am i doing da rit ting or da wrong ting???? wats being myself....who am i????? i realy dun noe.....

Swim and talk

swim 4 2 days d...n hv 2 wear bikini 4 da 1st time 2dy....hahaha...stil ok larrr...2dy oni danny kevin n kenny....hehehe....den after dat makan abit...keropok...asking me who is leng zai...hahaha...jacky ler stil....if he's after me wil i accept him...mayb i wil i tink...hahaha...den szehow nt so much i tink...kenny admit oso he's nt virgin...2 ex...kevin oso 2 ex...danny same oso....hahaha....me 0 lerrr....tey say it as if dating is a realy horrible ting....n their opinion on me is dat...i can do everyting....study...club...dance...piano...drink...talk alot...funny...smart...haizzzz....bt den nobody appreciates dat enuf 2 love me...other den vemal of cz....dat day sing k...he's realy al over me....haizzz..duno lerrr...duno wat 2 tink d....mayb shouldn't tink so much oso...

Am i relying too much on him???

i tink da answer would b yes i am...haizzz....dis morn he was like damn duno wat...mayb cz i tinking 2 much oso...he seemed so cold 2wards me....din tok much wit me...jz sped off during lunch time....den i was left alone....amy den going 4 sushi...i duwan 2 4low....so jz stand ter like duno wat....duno wer 2 go oso...duno who 2 4low oso...sudenly feeling so lost....TJ saw ashley oso cant c me d....in da end 4low him 2 eat wit sasi dem n chan heng...should hv known such a day would come anyhow...haizzzz....it's actualy me tinking 2 much....bt den it wil b reality sooner or later....so i should b getting used 2 it nw....again n again...bt stil everybody hv days like dis....jz anoter day rit....nobody care so much den myself...haizzzzzzz.....stil tinking n tinking...

NO BIG DEAL!!!!!

hahaha....kinda get over him d....well seriously no big deal..tinking bt it den listening 2 vemal jian yao n mum said....i do dat 2 ppl 2 rit...mayb jz nt rit 4 him...actualy iive been lying 2 myself 2...dat nite i was nt feeling much gud it him oso...kinda awkward situation...hahahaha.....so jz go on being frens....dat day pc fair 2nd day he sms me sudenly asking whether i was working...he cant c me oso...hahah..n i cant find his booth oso...hiding in da corner....saw da 2 amc gals working 4 dmobile....tipu me lerr neva hire part time workers...duwan me 2 work ter ni ler i tink...hahaha..wateva larr..i'm hapy n satisfied wit myself nw...current situation....bt den i cant say i was nt hapy seeing him ter...hahaha....

kenny kinda in2 yan...n she oso kinda in2 him....bt den wai kit said he nt trying 2 chase den wat is it he's doing???? hmm i wonder...hv 2 ask him later...ahahaha...

den yy in2 da guy oso dennis...hahaha....waiting 4 more stories from her i tink....

2dy went lunch wit szehow...hahaha...nt in2 me ler i tink...jz dat he recently ask 4 lunch...n i wonder wat da others tink when tey c me...i realy dun like da angelina....i tink she sure gona say smtg 2 dem....her eyes...telling smtg d...bzbody ler her....