Sleepover...Outings...Joyce Farewell...Jiaw House warming...

well dis few days passed kinda upside down....i slp at bt 6 or 7 or even 8am dis few days...went out during da day...kbox...ebox...jusco mostly...i cant realy remember exactly wer i went...cant even rem wat was my laz movie....mayb twilight i tink...nono...smtg was up after dat...ooh i noe...when the earth stood still....den ebox wit ryan n uncle chong...jusco shopping...alot of stuff cramped 2geter...yum cha at frens cafe..sincero riverbank...den farewell 4 joyce at aberdeen cafe...bowling wit dem...abel was realy nt bad...kbox 2dy again...shopping dis few days bought alot realy...mayb rm300...i tink so...

den jz nw szehow's house warming at sri kledang...damn far act....kinda ok lar da hs...alot of ppl...jacky ryan yeow chong yip oso ter...den pin jun ter oso...at 1st stil ok...kinda joking around...den playing cards...den ryan gt wit truth or dare...stupid shit ting...i knew smtg was gona blurt out...he started asking jacky bt his gf...so it's true...i tink da name was xie jia xing...dats da gal...he confess 2 her on x'mas eve...took her 2 waraku i tink den confess at jusco roof top....sure damn romantic lar...hahaha....well kinda hapy 4 him even thou i'm kinda sad oso...bt it's over n i'm glad i can jz 4gt it n move on.....bt da ting is ryan...he kp on asking bt dis as if he wans me 2 noe bt dis as if it's nt paining me 2 hear al dat...stil wana ask me who do i like on dat table...stupid jz wana scrap my face off i tink...den i jz jokingly say uncle chong...mood oso getting bad d....until da end when we wana go hm...i jz dun feel like going on his car again..it wil b like torture..so i jz ask yip 2 fetch me hm oso...i tink i realy look bad...uncle chong kp asking hw am i...den jacky even sms me 2 ask if i'm ok...den ask me nt 2 tink so much...i congrat him oso...n wish him al da bezz...he hope i wont b unhapy...i wil b hapy again...no worries bt dat...i sure can gt over it...soon...

da ting is stil ryan....stupid ignorant fool...when uncle chong ask me who he liked...he said b considerate bt hw ppl would feel....as if he wil noe...when he himself is asking al those ques without tinking of my feeling....stupid shitttt....arrrrggggghhhh...toking 2 uncle chong jz nw...damn angry n frus realy....bt wateva....he stil ask me wats da prob when i duwan 2 sit in his car....it's my choice!!! ter's no rule dat says i hv 2 4low ur car bac hm....bloody fella...stil wana sms me ask nid 2 b ldt izit....yes of cz....totaly strictly a need...!!!!!!

just hanging out...

dis few days...quite lazy 2 rit blog ler....everydy jz fin wit twilight...i'm sort of wondering if i should even slp nw...since it's ald 7am....anoter 1n a half hr...i'll hv 2 wk up n go 2 work again....haizzz...jz fin da 3rd book...eclipse....nice one...as usual....

anoter ting stirring in my mind....ryan i tink purposely mention bt da gal....jacky's fren....he hv his intention mentioning...n i cant resist asking bt it...it was kinda da reason he din exactly go 4 yan so he said...well if nt 4 da distance....since da gal was from his place....tey would hv been 2geter...u know...dats hw he phrased it....dat moment...even b4 he said it out...i was guesing ald....heart paining...crushing....so so damn sked or da answer which i hv ald expected...den he ask if i was ok....of cz i din i say anyting...he kinda din expect dat i was dis tough...mayb cry or wateva i duno...watvea it is...just anoter lesson 2 be learned..gotta move on n nt lose faith...just anoter obstacle 2 tk...live my life b4 it gets 2 late....**

Twilight finished...restless...distractions needed desperately...

whole day sort of used 2 fin da twilight book...online ebook...den went 2 slp a while...den gt so damn restless....nt in da mood 4 anyting at al....den tinking again bt wat da hell jacky was doing ter in da midnite at dat area....haizzzz.....wonder if i should ask him....or nt...haizzzz...damn it damn it....

Meeting...dress...chanele b'day...jacky ryan...clubbing...

kinda filled wit activites 2dy...went 2 work early morn....den meeting...wit chelvi....gt a full spat on da sponsorship letter...haizzz..den emily toking as if she can do everyting...wateva lar...i noe vemal oso nt syok de....den jz went 2 da bank 4 rm300...den bought da dres at laz 4 rm71...gotta change da size abit...kinda loose....came hm jz dress up n change everyting mk up...den jz bt it went out...raining so damn heavily...many roads were flooded....den i reach d....chanele stil hvn reach yet...her bf told me 2 jz go upstairs...den jz sat anoter 2 guys came over 2 sit....later some of dem arrive....eat da buffet lunch...ken seng ryan elaine eric desmond ivan dem al mostly came....den later serene teh oso came...den wenny wong n da duno wat soon d lar....came wit his gf i tink...after some time we went over 2 clubbing at da ex paprika restaurant...it was elaine's cousin's husband was 1 of da investors...den michelle yeoh's cousin oso 1 of dem...den saw da cute guy younger den me lar...den da Anna was actualy elaine's cousin..i din noe dat....den jz hang around....drank heineken...den on da way ter ryan was toking again....stil ok lar....den jz reaching ter...i saw a vry eye catching figure in da myv...den i recognise da number plat n da sunway sticker....it was AFX 1237....dats jacky's car...n it was 12am d....i realy wonder wat was he doing ter....mayb da bao??? or going out wit som1 else??? i dun rem if i saw anybody else in da car.....haizzz...my heart is like totaly crush n da mood gone so so totaly bad....den ryan started asking y n y n y again....arrrgh...den jz went on continue drinking..kinda 4gt bt it d...den jz went hm n ryan told me bt his family prob...i duno y he wana tel me...den he said his dad was wit anoter woman...den his mum was sick....den he was like da oni man in da hs....haizzzzz....hopefully he wont tink 2 much d lar....wateva it is....den lastly he told me....eric told him dat....ryan was trying 2 gt gals using money....n he said it were some gals from my course....i realy wonder who...i neva told anybody..watvea it is...well i dun care....

kinda lazy...meeting....

lazy 2 rit lar 2dy...jz went casuarina...den meeting...SIMPLY UNFASHIONABLE it is...
den kinda heard alot of bad stuff bt ryan from yan n kevin oso.....

Kbox Karaoke...Pasar malam...SMS!!!!! XD

2dy jz wk up den went 2 jusco...kc came 2 fetch most of us...den realy fun lar 2dy singing...saw christina working ter oso...den hao chou oso ter....quite cute lar act...den gt some other cute guys working ter oso...gt 1 gam mou de....hahaha...bt jz gap oni lar...yuk ming mcfelrik...oso went sing k ter...met dem at da entrance....den jinyi was like duno wat hapen lar...emo oni...den we went 2 eat at da food n tea...saw da guy again...bt nt so cute d....pasar malam eat abit oni lar...din met anybody dis time...n jian gt vomit n diaarhea...cant come oso...den sud jacky sms me asking bt da contact lens...den kp on smsing until jz nw he came hm 2 on9....hahaha....hapy lar no mater wat...jz a fren or wateva oso gud....den i jz continue lar...nw stil chating in msn...2mr gona go c boutique...shalani dem oso coming 4 lunch....den yan work in da afternun...bt i din tel her bt da boutique tingy...aiya dun care lar...

haizz..ryan ryan....

duno lar nw....everyting jz nt going well....esp wit ryan....i tink i realy mk him mad d....haizzzz....wat 2 do...i oso duno arrrr....arrrgggh....

boring day again...

haizzz....2dy seriously was worse laar....jz sit ter whole day ntg 2 do....jz reading my book....listening 2 da twilight songs oni.....den sasi vinita n joash oso came....jz watching movie i tink...den jacky kevin ryan szehow dem came as usual....den ntg much lar...kevin kp looking at my contact lens again....hahaha...saying my eyes like popping out....aunt peggy came oso 2dy...den when going lunch at coffee shop...saw jacky sudenly ter...i was like my heart jz dropped or wat....den duno kinda feeling wat lar...den saw ryan ter oso...haizzz....stupid shit him..laz nite called n crap crap al....saying i duwan 2 4low his car him kinda ting....haizzz....damn fan realy...n i duno wat da hell 2 say d....as if al i did was wrong n unfair n cruel 2 him....arrrgh..den once szehow was looking over here...den we like smiling den he nudge jacky...i was like my god...den jz went bhind da wall...stupid shit like an idiot....den after work went 2 yum cha wit dem...szehow jacky n ryan...kinda stil ok lar...bt half da time duno wat da hell tey were toking bt...tey went swiming i tink...den stay overnite at jacky's place...jz tot of looking 4 jacky in msn...bt din chat much lar...after knowing ryan was ter....din wana mk so much trouble 4 jacky oso...if nt duno wat da hell he wil say 2 jacky again...stupid shit...jz wish him luck....n crazy ryan again...dun realy feel like toking 2 him so jz kina fu hin....den he start crap again...wateva lar i dun care d....

JUST STAND FIRM AND DO NOT LET ANYBODY INTIMIDATE YOU!!!

n den i was listening 2 dis song....STILL BELIEVE IN LOVE by Jenny Hyun....realy nice n suiting lyrics 4 me actualy....it goes smtg ldt....

It was a clear summer day
when I saw the tears on your face
I knew that our time was up on us
Our moment of end was so fast
but the kiss of goodbye always lasts
not even time could fade it away

Even though you are no longer here
there is still something between us
Even though life isn't fair
I'll never lose my trust

Just another lesson to be learned
gotta move on and not lose faith
just another obstacle to take
live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up, I won't stay down
this is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love

I'm holding the warmth of your lips
it feels like the time we first kissed
when all of the stars lined up for us
but like the wind you said goodbye
and left me alone here to cry
we shouldn't have gone our separate ways

Even though you are no longer here
there is still something between us
Even though life isn't fair
I'll never lose my trust

Just another lesson to be learned
gotta move on and not lose faith
just another obstacle to take
live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up, I won't stay down
this is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love

Just another lesson to be learned
gotta move on and not lose faith
just another obstacle to take
live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up, I won't stay down
this is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love

n den ter's anoter song called ALMOST LOVER...anoter song wit meaningful lyrics...

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
No
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Open day & Peng B'day

dis morn wk up early....laz nite damn late oni slp lar....den jz slp 4 3 hrs....2dy jz oni listening 2 talks....den ntg much 2 do oso....den jacky ryan szehow uncla chong dem al came oso....jz 2 revise i tink...den jacky actualy notice dat i was wearing grey contact lens.....hahaha....n he said wana gt a pair himself 2...jz no $$ n lazy 2 buy...i kinda recommend dark brown 4 him....hahaha....cant realy imagine him wearing it...mayb wil look like vampire oso....den at laz he send me an sms after he of9...jz 2 say he gona slp lar....hahaha....he coming oso i tink 2mr....hehehe....hapy hapy...

den jz nw went 2 breeze cafe 4 peng's b'day...kinda sing alot....den tok bt x'mas....going bbq in keat's hs....den new yr oni going 2 kl....so c lar hw later...den yy ask me 2 go wit her 2 kl on mon n tues....mayb no prob lar i tink....hahaha....can go shoping oso....saw joanne's fren...laz time went clubing ones....4gt wat name d...jz da patrick i noe was ter oso...den yan oso noe bt da guess bag...ryan told her almost everyting....den she jz told every1 ter jz nw...haizzz.....

den uncle chong 2dy told me bt ryan....he act told jacky dat werever he asking me 2 go...he wont ask him oso....haizzz...wat da fuck lar him....wats his prob nw....stupid shit...hw can he ruin me n jacky jz ldt....aaarrrrggghhh....if nt i realy tink we hv a chance....den uncle chong ask me 2 grab da chance myself oso...hmmmm mayb i jz gona do dat....wakakaka.....c lar hw later.....c hw everyting goes....open 2 more chances.....jz tk everyting ez as it goes......XD

TWILIGHT!!!!! facinating and wonderfully superb!!!!!

luv it luv it luv it!!!!!! totaly luv da movie....da story da character n everyting in it...cant wait 4 da sequel....n i am so so gona get da book.....da eyes of edward...oh my god....dazzling n mezmerising.....totaly unstoppable......later gona post lots of fotos....jz download d.....since coming bac from coll....totaly disapointer lar wit jacky....din even wana look at me or wateva....haizzz..fine lar....den gt briefing from fahame bt da open day....arrgghh...hv 2 wear da stupid sunway grey t'shirt...so damn ugly lar....k larr....later going rum jungle d....kinda feel bad lar nt going out wit yy....haizzz....bt 2mr going out larr....hehehe....rit on da dot....nw gona go bath.....n RUM JUNGLE HERE I COME!!!!!

EXAM'S OVER!!!!!! x'mas gift????

hahaha...at laz exam's over...bt my t10 i duno wat hapen larr...npv so damn confusing....n everybody gt positiv npv....duno y i gt negativ oso....haizzz...dun care d lar it's over n done....so b it...jz gona wait 4 da results....well...jz after exam...anoter bomb....ryan gave me a guess pink clutch bag with a mirror oso.....haizzz...sure damn expensiv lar....crazy dude....den told yy...scold me again...den gt chat wit ryan lar...everyting jz clear....as frens....dats al...no expectations...den i kinda ok wit it lar...n jz nw went moonriver with everybody...jz hang out....having fun chat n drink....den went nasmir oso...met christina ter....den jz came hm lar...chat wit jacky oso...stupid dumb...duno wat asking bt hw 2 noe if some1 chat wit da person she like...wat da heck he craping...wonder if he's toking bt me da she....bt i dun tink so ler....sobzzz....mayb jz let go or wateva lar....duno duno duno...den 2mr mayb going watch movie wit bavanee dem....hehehe....n work lar duno hw....c ler afternoon hw...mayb jz go bac work until 5.30pm....haizzz....gona slp nw lar...damn late d oso....n dis from jacky....printscreen so called...

laz day lar 2mr.....arrrghhh....

well 2dy t9...haizzz..i oso duno lar dis paper hw....like quite alot wrong duno wer oso....haizzz..worst paper until nw....my god..... den went 2 coll quite late...jacky oso in da lib....din even look at me dun say smile or wat lar....nt even acknowledge my presence...haizz..bt wat da heck...i did jz da same ting on ryan....haizzz....true as it says...wat goes around comes around.....mayb dats wat jacky trying 2 do oso...wan me 2 jz 4get it....den fine lar..i'l jz try my bez 2 do so....hopefully ryan wil oso....den he sud send me rm3....haizzz..duno wat 2 say d....jz he sms say beta left some credit...den later can send him bac da rm3.....den jz nw went pasar malam...saw joyce n da 1 4gt wat name d....den yy al da aus frens oso ter d...da xian chan was ter oso...den din c much ppl lar...saw jung yeow as usual...hahaha....den so so damn crowded da whole place....so hard 2 even walk thru da ppl....den yy jz nw complain bt jinz....his stupid mouth again lar...say dis n dat..soon ken oso wana mention...haizzz...duno wat 2 say oso...yy kp saying duwan 2 c him...haizz...bt yilee leh....den mayb 2mr nite gona go yum cha n chat wit her....she say sometimes feel like aus geh frens even beta den dem al...haizzzz...mayb ppl realy do change ler...most obvious wil b yy kee hyin oso abit act....den others abit here n ter...haizzz...mayb i myself changed bt neva realise oso...haizzz..wateva lar...al dis jz norm of life....den din go anyting jz nw oso...wana study oso no mood d....den i tink shalani asked sasi b4 bt dem.....bt he said jz frens oni...den she oso cant do anyting unless he tel da truth...haizzz...stupid guy lar...hopefully 2mr no prob...nw jz gona slp n 2mr morn oni continue my exam papers.....

exam exam damn stress....haizzzz...

joanne's b'day ytd nite...some of her frens came lar...bt none of da guys r even ok....haizzz...jz eat n eat...den play wit shevone...ntg much...den mum was like so in2 da whole ting....crazy...din get 2 go 2 pc fair oso...haizzzz.....end up wit ntg...n den sau ying was like getting mad of me alwaz going out....wat 2 do....tot wont go out wit frens..cc stil gt smtg up everydy....den 2dy public hol oso went bac col lib 2 work...close at 5.30pm den hp oso no more credit...cant cal...den wait until tey fin exam oso i hvn gone bac....haizzz....so so in a bad mood d dat time..so jz feel like crying oni...den came hm jz slp until nw eat dinner....den starting wit t9 again...haizzz...so so nt in da mood d lar.....wat da heck....

den jacky put his pm as never let u go....wonder who would dat b....mayb yan...well most probably....so stop al dis shit!!!!!

Halo Cafe...Will...Power Search....

well...ytd nite went 2 halo cafe....will was performing ter...nt bad lar him....gt 6 awards in da award ceremony....den jz hang out ter...din go dance clas oso....after dat sandy dem told me bt da power search on 2dy....den said al da newcomers hv 2 tk part.....so 2dy jz went n sing teardrops on my guitar...will's comment was dat i gt a nice voice...bt jz stil duno hw 2 control it....esp going up 2 high notes....stil floating oni....den english songs as usual...mayb da slang prob lar.....well...no matter wat i hv a bit more confidence nw as i hv already gt a gud comment.....dat my voice is actualy gud!!!!!
hahahahaha....hapy hapy....den jien wei went oso wit his gf....he gt in2 da training ting....den anoter gal came n gt da chance oso...bt i dun tink she's dat gud....n she gona sing in halo cafe 4 1 yr contract oso.....hmmm....looks like my chance lessen again d lar....neva mind ler...jz do my bez n enjoy!!!!!!

haizzz....jacky again....

well ytd lunch....act when ryan ask me i oso say d duwan 2 go lar....den later uncle chong say teman me go eat...den he sud argue wit suki...so damn angry n fierce...sked oso...den after dat cc ryan stil waiting outside ter...ish ish....den he say wana go eat oso...waiting 4 me....arrrgh..den jz nw oni uncle chong told me...ryan tot he wana tackle me......haizzzz...den signal wana teman me eat wo....wat da hell lar.....

da nite b4 we went pasar malam....den met dusit....chat abit lar...wana c who i went wit again...hahaha....sud sms me halfway...hahaha...after dat went 2 tong gu teng 2 eat...kee fetch me hm....den told her bt my complicated story....she oso told me bt da chee yong...he act confess d....n kiss her on da cheeks few times oso...bt she reject him d....den anoter 1 is her clasmate...quite surprising oso...den she oso nt sure which 1 she likes...haizzzz....den jian dem oso duno bt dis i tink...as wat she said lar...

den laz nite went 2 keat's hs 2 drink...jack daniel's n red label......bt da red label sucks lar realy....like cockcroach taste oni....yuck...den we play game lar...damn fun n crazy totaly...den al da gals went 2 slp overnite at jun's hs....cyong oso went....haha...realy surprising leh....den we wk up early morning 2dy..cyong jz throw da bolster at me 2 wk me up....hahaha....den chatted abit wit wei...jz went 2 prepare den coll lar....ryan ask me 4 lunch again 2dy....den i say duwan....he said jacky is going oso wo.....ish ish...so wana jz hit him....den jz leave it lar...den gam ngam tey came bac from lunch....jacky went out on his hp....den tey arrive 2 fetch me oso...went on da car kp asking me izit him jacky....hahaha....gone lar gone...den ryan oso came out....ish ish....

den jz sing k lar....sing n sing n sing....kee oso nt bad d lar her singing act....so went jusco get smtg for jun....den went hm...damn slpy act after bathing....watch dream of colours abit....jz nw chating wit chanele oso....i jz put only in dreams as my msn pm....den she ask y d....jz tel abit ldt lar....well she noe most of it d....sun kei ji yin....dats wat she says...true oso lar...den she going singapore d 2mr...so syok...come bac oni celeb her b'day...chatting wit yy oso....she ar as usual...toking bt love life wit her means gik d lar....ahahahaha....diferent opinion lar totaly....well...cant do anyting bt it....so b it lar den.....den 2mr work again...jz gona study study study....

exam exam exam....arrrggghh.....

having exam d lar...2dy t6 ok lar...should b no prob i tink...can score oso mayb....jz 2mr t7 duno hw lar....shit gona shit....like no heart 2 wana study d....den jz nw commenting on da fotos....stupid sze how i tink he noe smtg d lerr....saying bt wat ryan n jacky de....ish ish....gona die lar me....jz ignore ler.....stil kinda looking at jacky..noticing bt him...bt den i dun tink it's love or wat lar...jz crush oni....so wat lar....den jz gt my new hair cut....actualy feel kinda wierd....arrrghh....kp spelling it wrongly...jacky say again d....weird...haizzz.....kinda lala at 1st...cz it's less hair...den da top kinda fluffy....bt den nw i kinda like dis new hair style...gona maintain dis a while....den mayb later wil curl it again...hehehehe...n tried on a few bikinis ytd....hahaha...funny lar da whole gang joanne kevin dem al in parade....al looking at me trying it on....jz gona c da jusco 1 1st...den oni decide which 2 buy...n oh yeah...da titus watch....bt rm629 originally...den after discount bt rm377...oh my god....dis is da 1st time mum wana buy me smtg so expensiv....hahaha....den jz nw ask me izit realy wana buy...of cz lar i wont miss dis chance....hahaha....cute pink nice titus watch....!!!!!!wakakakaka.....bez x'mas present ever!!!!