Vemal's confession...again...A MESSAGE FROM MY HEART !!!

Love 2 me was just a word, which I never really bothered about until i meat u, someone who gave da word a meaning. To have known you and to have loved you has been the most beautiful dream; I can only hope that I never wake up. I seriously cannot put into words hw u make me feel, all I noe is that It was a real wonderful feeling… a day spent with u,even for a moment can really make my day…at the beginning I never really knew what was going on…becoz I was unable 2 describe the feeling, it was all new 2 me….maybe that’s just love, it just happens without condition..

I would like 2 ask u a question, can u tell me the difference between love and like? Well Michelle, in my experience, after u came into my life, I was able 2 differentiate the words, when there is a reason why u have a little something for that someone.it is not called love it is called like..becoz in love there are just no reasons..it just happens…and when it does…the sky is da limit..2 tell u frankly I saw what was inside u, I saw your inner beauty, I was so vulnerable, that I just fell for u…!! My love for u can’t be expressed by mere words…You know you love someone when you cannot put into words how they make you feel.

a Wiseman once told me that only fool’s rush, and maybe I was 1… but I could not help myself, I loved you so much that I was afraid I will lose u and I confessed my hearts feelings....but 2 my fate the tables turned… Now that I have loved so purely and deeply, I have realized how lonely I really was. I always asked my self Why is it easy to fall in love and yet so hard to be loved back? Why should I feel such if destiny permits me not? Why do I have to fall if it's you I can’t have? Why is there a "you" in "me"but never a "me" in "you”? Loving you was easy, losing you was hard. Loving you is still easy, but knowing you will never be mine, is the hardest of it all.
when I’m in love, another girl, no matter even if she’s Jessica alba, will be only a passing shadow 2 the eyes, becoz 2 me u are everything…even up 2 this very day…! Michelle 2 my eye, there’s never a thing which can be compared 2 u, as I said before u will only know hw special you are 2 me if u are able 2 c ureself in my eyes.

2 tell u the truth, even after u told me 2 move on, what made me go on was merely because I never gave up on u…im telling u now….even up 2 today….i knew what I felt in me was real and I noe it was pure…seriously..im being open, there was never lust in my love at all, and its coming from my heart…I was just going with the flow…and just let time decide…but 1 thing is for sure, my possessiveness for u grew…I just could not control myself. Through out, we went through a lot of bitter, sweet. But my love only grew for u…!! my fren’s told me 2 just give it about 2 months+, and I will get over it….but the fact is until 2 day I can never ever forget u….!! I just which da 22nd of august 2008 never existed….haizzz..recently there were some complications along the way… and I went down falling into hell..it was 2 painfull for me even 2 handle…and that was the period which I laid low for a while. But even after that…my love for u has never changed…I noe I cannot make u love me, maybe god was nt fair 2 me, that’s all..its like I have no license 2 show u hw much I care and 2 show u what I feel for u…it really hurts..!!

I started listening 2 a lot of love songs, because it gave meaning 2 my love and a place where I can surrender my heart 2…If a day goes by that I don't say I love you, always know that I do. I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi or even smile at me because I know, even if it’s just for a second, that I've crossed your mind. If I count how many times you've crossed my mind in my entire life, I’d be lying if I said it was too many because you only crossed my mind once, why? Because You never left ... Michelle always remember this When i tell you I love you, I don’t say it out of a habit or to start a conversation, I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me…..

Well michelle, I just felt like sharing this out with you…It was all trapped in me and I just wanted it all 2 come out.. if I would hv said anything wrong then do forgive me…just noe that u will always be special 2 me..!! vemal